#Linked to Yoroiis - It's her Childe this applies to and only her Childe <3

[thundertide]

Linked to: @yoroiis

Although Kagota thinks she's human with abyssal abilities, she's come to learn this may not be the case after Fontaine - And in truth, it really isn't. Caught up in an endless cycle of rebirth, she is far from a typical human, and it's taken severe trauma building up and finally breaking her in half to realize just what she is.

Her original life ended well over 2,000 years ago; born an abyssal being from a raw, primal source into a realm populated by countless factions seeking power and their own sense of control, she spent her lifetime much like she has this one, growing up alongside her partner and eventual lover, Childe, despite their recruitment by rivaling factions. Though she was trained by a close friend of theirs, a Frost Fall Herald by the name of Leandros, and more than capable of holding her own on the battlefield, she was horribly unprepared for the wiping out of much of her faction, with a fixation on any close to her aside from Leandros. With the clues pointing towards Childe, now the head of his faction, being the one to order the attack, she turned on his side, returning the favor until he managed to stop her.

Upon finding the truth - that rebelling members of his side had taken issue with their bond and sought to remove the opposition if he refused to - and calming her anger by handing her the true culprits to deal with herself, the suggestion was put forth by Leandros to merge the remains of their respective factions, and right their wrongs by taking control of the abyss. The plan was a good one, and quickly implemented, and with Leandros as their right hand, Kagota and Childe quickly took to laying waste to any others who stood in their way. If betrayal was so easy of a thing for abyssal beings, they would trample it and claim their rightful place on top, wipe it out and change the abyss itself-

However, even the most carefully laid plans can come undone, and theirs was no different. Even though they succeeded in conquering much of the abyss, becoming nightmares of the battlefield and making a solid name for themselves, they were still blind to the very thing that had brought them together - Betrayal. Namely a betrayal from their own men, working with the enemy to overthrow them, and killing them though literally stabbing them in the back during battle, forcing them to watch the other's end.

Nobody knows how the laws of the world took pity on them after their deaths, nor why. All was know was that their soul was taken on their passing and cleansed of the abyss, carefully placed into a cycle of rebirth that would see them able to begin again, united yet human... And yet even this would refuse to go smoothly, as the abyss refused to release full control. Unable to be fully removed from their soul, it splintered fragments off to reclaim and prevent them from being whole - Fragments caught by Leandros, who stubbornly and forcibly removed himself from the cycles of the world and even Fate itself to install himself as the guardian of these fragments. Unable to save his friends, he refused to allow them to be consumed by the very realm that saw fit to harm them so much throughout their life, and made sure these fragments would return to him until their rebirth. Not the abyss, not to the darkness, not to demise... To him, where they would be safe until he could return them to where they belonged: Kagota and Childe.

While the legacy of the two beings later known as Heraldic Tempest and Foul Legacy would be remembered and even feared, few would ever know of the full story - Or that Tempest and Legacy had never truly perished as assumed.

More than 2,000 years have passed since their original lives, and Kagota has seen hundreds more since, every one of them by the side of her literal other half, Childe.

For most of her lives, Kagota is completely unaware to the fact she's been reborn countless times, each life's memories locked away in the depths of her soul to give her a fresh start in each - Same Kagota, but no memories, shaped only by the time and place each life she finds herself in. There are several things that have carried over despite this; she's been trained by Leandros in each, found by him in his constant search to return the fractured fragments to the soul they belong to, time and time again, returning them to a 'whole' state. She and Childe have developed a means of tending to the health of their soul and caring for it, and have even learned a last ditch type of ability to retreat into their soul when it's damaged or completely overwhelmed by trauma, and she has been by Childe's side in every one of them constantly drawn back to him time and time again, allowing the two halves of their soul to fuse back together and form back into one like it should have been right alone, with their old friend's help.

But it is in her current lifetime alone Kagota has been forced to retreat into her soul, fractured and in danger of not only shattering, but killing the both of them all over again due to overwhelming trauma neither of them can handle - and it is in this lifetime alone she has learned they've been through many lives prior to it. While she isn't aware of just how many, the reason why they seem to be reborn over and over again, or just what their original lives were, she has gained access to some of her previous memories, and learned Tempest and Legacy, things she had thought to be abyssal power lingering within them, are not what they seem.

Legacy and Tempest... Are just another side of themselves.

Since returning to Snezhnaya with her family and gaining some help in pushing through the overwhelming, soul-breaking trauma they faced, Kagota now struggles to sort through the things she's learned, and is actively trying to make sense of it and learn more. Talking about it is difficult when she's sure even her own husband won't believe her, but... Oh, if she can just make sense of it when it makes so much else make sense-!

But... Can she...? That's the question, now... Even if she's determined to make it all make sense.

#Let The Thunder Roar [Kagota Headcanons] #Linked to Yoroiis - It's her Childe this applies to and only her Childe <3 #We've been thinking a lot about this and studying canon and the like to make sure this makes sense #Without breaking canon #And Kag's still learning a LOT about herself from it? Like her adaptability IS because of her need to survive #But it's also because she's been heavily trained for 2k years to make sure she can defend herself if needed #She's ALWAYS been a step behind Childe and that's okay? #She fits in where his skills falter and vice versa #But there's SO MUCH MORE than this - I just wanted to get up a basic outline #While it was on my mind <3 #Especially since Leandros is going to be a guest muse soon - more on that later #There's a LOT planned <w< <3