#Love Like Situationship August Stroytelling LostLove Adventure Outing Relationshipgoals SouthAfrica Capetown WesternCape

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Cold, Windy,  Steamy with the Sun Gleaming ... August

In the past  four months leading up to my move to Xhosaland - Western cape I’ve had a distant friend* help me recap my life and visit the worn out ideas of ‘what could’ve been’ …

He, of course has no idea that the past 4 months were - for me - about more than the the forehead kisses, cuddles, lingering kisses and long hugs… It’s actually in the conversations about back home, my family dynamics and high school experiences soon after my dad’s passing. It’s in those moments that I got caught up - that’s what jogged my memory and at times had me out of breath.

Not to his knowledge though - I don’t do the whole 'I’m vulnerable’ thing too well but the conversations we had were therapeutic.

We encounter each other every 5years in the most off chance places. We run in the same circles but funny enough never at the same pace -  This time around has been a bit more of a intimate friendship, a reminder of what love would be like but mostly a wrong place wrong time all over again.

We’ve been on outings together which were couple goals levels - toots own horn. The most recent outing was at my request and  an ambush suggestion after sex

'I need to go to this animal centre, I promised myself I would… you wanna go?’… I said this with such ease you’d swear I’d been rehearsing it

'Say yesss… we going right?… say it… say yess…’ I really wanted him around me for the day and I knew I wasn’t up to spend my time in bed - I’m about creating memories and seeing what’s out there lately.

'What time does it end?… ’ he asked. At this point I knew he had given in…

I check my google calendar 

'Its from 11am to 2pm…’ I’m grinning waiting for the words 'Okay, let’s’

'I have that event later on today, I had put it up on my whatsapp status earlier this week remember? … But it’s only way later so we can go.’

I feel like such a Dick for putting him on the spot like he doesn’t have a life outside our arrangement*

'You sure? If you need to be there then….’ he interrupts me midsentence ’… yeah no I’m sure, I only have to be there later this afternoon’ he’s on top of me now reassuring me… I’m grinning from ear to ear and let him have his way with me once more before I leave to get ready 

I’m so over myself and this situationship I’m in but I can’t help it… He’s been a great companion and probably every girl’s 'relationship goals’ but I’m not there. Relationship goals don’t advance your career and they’re not my life purpose. 

Who’s fooling who right?

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