#Mad money being (the equivalent of) 25 bucks. 20 for a taxi and 5 for a bag of chips.

[bonefall]

why is fernsong on thin ice with dovewing, did ivypool use him to send her messages or something like that

Yeaaaaahhh. I figured it was obvious enough to figure out lmao.

Dovewing really likes Fernsong (who doesn't?) but Ivypool continues to be a petty badger for years. She's changed a lot after the impostor murdered her daughter publicly for codebreaking and suddenly ShadowClan didn't look so crazy to resist him from the very start...

But she treated Dovewing like garbage for years. Always looking for ways to spite her and her 'Friendship' with Tigerheart, and it didn't even stop after she booked it. Dovewing doesn't WANT to fix this.

Sure, this stems from Lionblaze being a really bad parent, playing obvious favorites with Dovepaw and neglecting Ivypaw. But Ivypool would take it out on her. Well into their adulthood. And NOW she wants to reconcile? When Dovewing's finally away from her, and living happily?

Fernsong and Dovewing have a history, making friends with each other before Fern started dating Ivy when he first joined ThunderClan, but he FLOATED the idea of Dove talking to her sister, "you know... Ivypool talks about you," and she shut it down fast.

(That means she walked away, cutting the whole reunion short. She really did discover the power of Just Leaving and has been using it like a superpower)

He hasn't dared try again, since that moment. He knows very well he won't get a second chance, and Dovewing is his friend. He doesn't want to ruin it. She's forgiven him, but hasn't forgotten.

I think Dovewing has a reputation of being really sensitive, according to ThunderClan cats. And, she kinda is? But it's because she was so patient for years with them. She feels like if she gives an inch, they'll take a mile, and reacts accordingly.

...it's why the deafness isn't ALWAYS a bad thing, in Dovewing's mind. Sometimes she really appreciates it. She doesn't have to listen to her dad bark for her to get back here, or Bumblestripe break out into a sob, or whatever stage of denial Ivypool's circled back around to. If she does, it's quiet.

It's SO much easier to walk away now.

#That's the hardest part about leaving. It doesn't feel like a win in that moment. #It feels like you're being mean and selfish. #It gets better. I promise it gets better. But it doesn't always feel good right away and that's okay #You still made the right choice. #lmao this reminds me of something really sweet I learned from my great grandma #She used to say to my parent 'You always gotta have mad money. I don't leave home without mad money' #Mad money being (the equivalent of) 25 bucks. 20 for a taxi and 5 for a bag of chips. #Just tucked into your pocket or purse or whatever. #It makes me smile when I stash a bit of mad money someplace haha. It stays alive in me. #tw toxic family #tw abuse #better bones au #BB!Dovewing #BB!Fernsong #I do have a lot of characters in BB who do reconcile but Dove's not one of them. #She gave them enough chances. She's done being responsible for their happiness. #lovewing dovewing