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lazarus---rising · 1 year

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suppose there's something else, here, a dangerous design, a way to rectify the balance, when you cross another line, suppose you've hurt your boyfriend, and pride's your greatest sin, suppose you can't remember, where he ends and you begin! your words are too hasty, your self-control poor, you've hurt many people, you'll always hurt more, you need some way to fix it, not prevaricate, but find and banish sin, before it's too late! too late! too late! there are only three people with the genius to try: me, myself, and i!

ambrose? what's going on?

i thought i told you to leave me alone!

what did you do to them? are they dead??

suppose that ancient athletes had a way to alter bone, suppose they wrote past muscle, theres a hardness just like stone! suppose it lets you carve yourself into what you want to be! they all pushed beyond their limits, and surpassed anatomy!

bassford, they can't move. how are you going to explain this to the rest of the school?

you can explain it if you like. im never going to be leaving this room!

ambrose, hey, just- just put down the chisel and come with me..! what are ... what else is there to make perfect?

i didn't think you'd understand! you've never been this close! it's just a bit more off the ankles, or a little off the nose! so my parents and my girlfriend, my closest friends and you, will know i deserve their love, once there's no more work to do! there are only three people who'll be perfect in their eyes, ME, MYSELF, AND I!

suppose you're fucking arrogant, of course i understand! but love isn't conditional, it comes with no demands, suppose you see this thing through, trap yourself inside stone! you can have the perfect body, perfect, dead and alone! just make a body you can live with, and live in it! find someone you're in love with, give in to it! i don't need to be perfect, as long as im theirs, when somebody loves you, then nobody cares!

PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY. PAIN REWIRES EACH INDIGENT NERVE. PAIN KEEPS YOU SANE, MORALS STRAIGHT, SENSES SHARPER, PAIN IS THE LOVE YOU DONT HAVE TO DESERVE! because thats how it starts, in snippets and rivulets, and a growing, glowing feeling, that you can't puzzle out just yet, every gesture a message, every secret a sign, your future's elided, dused with theirs in one line!

so i'm sorry you're lonely! but this torment will pass! and you'll never feel better, if you- fucking die- you stupid ass!

so, are we formatting the follow-up interviews the same way as the first round? or are we cutting your introductions?

...

hello? earth to beatrix?

oh! sorry, uh, i think... i think the first one is good.

suppose i made an error, not so easily reversed. lin's never followed through, but maybe this time is the first. suppose he kills someone or dies in an awful fight, and i could've stopped it, would i sleep through the night?

you could always end this, before you lose control, my grandma would tell me, i'll lose half my soul, but im not quite to blame here, that all falls on lin. and without that advantage, there's no chance i'd win. there are only three people to justify why: me, myself, and i!

research means you're all alone, hoping that nobody calls your bluff, stay original, stay true to yourself, but will what you are be good enough? the only limits you can know are your own, so why not push them a bit more? everyone here is an enemy near to earing the thing you've been yearning for!

there are only three people on whom you can rely:

ME,

MYSELF,

AND I!

vincent, i-i can't go back, or undo this, or fix it. help me get out of this. a favor- for an old friend!

a token. of my friendship.

bye, ambrose.

me, myself, and i!

#im so normal im so usual i swear

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