#Reactionarily I'm like 'i should've never broken up with my boyfriend; i didn't want to be in that relationship anymore-

[wachi-delectrico]

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The matters of the heart...

#Feeling really stupid today #Idk why i let myself feel like that when i knew it wasn't reciprocated #I'm just stupid and awkward #No guy will love me ever again #I know that's hyperbolic but that's just how I feel #I just filled my head with sweet nothings without considering what they wanted or even what I wanted #I feel like it is on me though #They really showed signs of it and i knew it would happen but I just didn't want to believe it i guess #What makes me feel worse is that I'm getting all sad and upset about this when we are just friends and were never in a relationship #While i broke up an actual committed relationship of 10 years and didn't really feel all that bad about it #I guess it's the difference between breaking up with someone and being broken up on #BUT WE WEREN'T IN A RELATIONSHIP SO I FEEL SO DUMB FOR FEELING LIKE THIS OR EVEN SAYING IT #that's why it's hidden in the tags :') #Reactionarily I'm like 'i should've never broken up with my boyfriend; i didn't want to be in that relationship anymore- #but at least he loved me' #Hhhhhh i don't know man i feel so stupid #I just want to feel loved and cherished and understood beyond just a friendship level kind of thing but #I just feel like it'll never happen again #Like it's so hard for me to socialize and meet new people #And I'm so fucking weird and awkward and difficult who could ever be able to handle me #AND I FEEL SO BAD ABOUT FEELING THIS WAY WE WEREN'T EVEN IN A RELATIONSHIP WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS UGHHHH #I HATE MY BRAIN #i feel like those In The Know are gonna judge me #...... There's like a 0% chance he's gonna read this but still I Hope He Doesn't Ahahahahaha #Hhhhh idk man i just want to sleep and be sad today #I feel so stupid #Honestly? This is karma for breaking up with my ex and not feeling nearly as bad as he is feeling right now #Hhhhhh I'll get over it.... #I just... Idk #I just want to be loved like a man loves another man (gay)