#Satari rambles

[satari-raine]

I'm still not used to fully talking on here but I just have to talk for a minute about Sleep Token and Wembley.

They did fantastic. After touring so much this year, doing back-to-back shows, dealing with a band member having to take a leave of absence for most of their final tour, incorporating new changes to their routine and style, and with Vessel having hurt his voice during such a huge show, they did fantastic.

I watched along with Discord. Mostly lurked. And everything I saw from the effects on stage, the fun antics, the performances, the playing - guitars, bass, drums, the dancers, the choir - they did fantastic. And Vessel. I said it in chat that he doesn't need to hurt himself or his voice to earn the love of those who listen to his music, but he kept going. He sang, and pushed through when he had every right in the world to put a stop to the show and focus on his health. He kept on going while also giving to the crowd the chance to carry him through, and seeing everyone - from those on stage with him to the crowd to people in chat and what I saw on here - still loving him, loving them?

They did fucking fantastic, and I dare anyone tell me otherwise. As a community, we should be celebrating them despite any differences of opinion - being kinder and supportive of one another is literally everything they've shown with III's situation and in general. It's what so many of us showed back to them with the hand salutes for III and the marked ? on our hands during specific songs. Their new outfits have fan-made decals to them, for fuck's sake. They are absolutely, without a doubt, genuine about making everyone feel loved.

Look, I'm just a stranger on the internet at the end of the day but this band has come to mean so much to me since I found them, to the point where they've honestly kept me going some days - them and the wonderful people I've met through them - and I just need them to know that they did fantastic, their music still brings people together despite hiccups along the way, and regardless of any of those hiccups, they are so loved. Loved beyond belief.

The night didn't just belong to all of us at Wembley, but to them, too.

#Satari rambles #Sleep Token #I'm sorry if this is too much but I just had to get something out #I usually don't swear much either but just #Yeah #Had to ramble #Especially after seeing him do BloodSport despite his voice and health and then seeing the entire crew and band rush to him to celebrate #The way he fell to his knees and bowed so low his forehead touched the stage #I cannot tell anyone how much his strength and emotional depths and just him #What they all have started meaning to me #If anyone needs me I'm going to be throwing love at the Discord mods and vibing with the lovely people here while I try not to keep crying #And people are more than welcome to reblog this too if it resonates #And it goes without saying that they all deserve as much rest and downtime as they want #The band and the crew and the dancers and choir #Everyone #Love you all

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#sid rambles #today on my way home from work i saw a lesbian couple holding hands going to the mall #i also saw a dude riding a motorcycle with thicc thighs #this day has been such a blessing #aLSO SHEITH LOVE EVRYWHERE #OH MY GOD SATARI WHERE ARE YOU I NEED TO TALK TO YOU #my ugly whale noises at 10 in the evening are a stark reminder of how much of a nerd i am for sheith omlawd

[satari-raine]

Seeing people talk about (what I'm fairly certain is) the wakizashi Vessel uses in the "The Love You Want" music video and I'm trying so hard not to jump in, because I think there's some neat little associations with the blade and the video's symbolism. I love Japanese swords and culture and would probably ramble until someone stopped me with a frying pan to the face.

Edit: Well, a ramble happened.

#Satari rambles #Sleep Token #Hi yes I have a bachelor's degree in Japanese studies and language and I'll probably make this someone else's problem one day #Also I adore that music video so much so #Ignore me I'm a dork first and a person second

[satari-raine]

I didn't mean to post this on April Fool's, but I can promise it's not a joke, unfortunately.

Since I graduated in December, I've been unable to find a job - either getting rejections or no reply whatsoever, and where I live currently isn't the most productive area with opportunities. Thankfully, up until now, I've had savings and a minor freelance gig to help take care of bills and my pets, but any money I had put back is about gone. It's frustrating and embarrassing, but I'm unsure how to make ends meet from here on out until I can find a job.

I've fought with myself to even ask this, especially since my writing has been so slow-going due to job hunting and I don't have much to offer, but I know I don't have much else to lose at the moment while I keep doing applications.

I'd be glad to write ficlets, poetry, or anything similar for a Ko-Fi, pay what you'd like or can. My writing tag is here, but I can discuss any fandoms or interests via DMs. Also, please, I know times are tough and money is tight for everyone, so don't feel bad if you can't do anything. Thank you if you read this far, too - sorry to break up the boop-fest with this.

#Satari rambles #Between bills and medical expenses and car and housing troubles it's been rough but I'm trying to keep my head up #I'm sorry that I even have to ask on here but I'm unsure of what else to do at the moment #If anyone has other suggestions I'd be happy to hear #Hope you all are doing well though #Rooting for you all as always

[satari-raine]

I think I'd probably cry if Vessel ever sang off-mic in an empty cathedral, just having all that empty space for the acoustics and the echoes to bounce off of, surrounded by the melodic, haunting sound of it all. Yeah, I'd probably cry.

#Sleep Token #Satari rambles #Please ignore me #Was just listening to an isolated vocal track and the thought slapped me like a swinging two by four at mach speed #I'm sorry if this is strange or weird to say #I'm just so impressed by his vocal range #And videos of people singing in churches or cathedrals are so beautifully haunting #I just love people showing off their talents #And the settings with his voice and lyrics would be a match made in heaven

[satari-raine]

Not pictured: me laughing ridiculously hard in the background.

#Legend of Zelda #Tears of the Kingdom #Hi I'm a dork but this made me and my roommate laugh so hard #Wish the one wasn't poofed away but hey #Hope this makes someone laugh too #Satari rambles

[satari-raine]

Happy 30th birthday to me, as strange as that is to say.

Thank you sincerely for letting me occupy a little space on your dashboards, and take care of yourselves during this time of year and onwards. Love and be loved, I'm rooting for you all.

#Satari rambles #It's a bittersweet time of year for several reasons and my birthday genuinely has mostly felt like just another uneventful day #Which I suppose comes with the territory of a birthday straddling a holiday and family obligations #But I'm trying to be content that I made it to this age #I hope I treat myself kinder this decade #While working towards finding a sense of contentment and happiness and autonomy #My dorky ramblings aside #Happy holidays everyone #May you find something to brighten your day #Rooting for you as always

[satari-raine]

A very nice museum job nearby just opened up that I did an application for, and I'm sitting here staring at the submission email crossing all my fingers for it. Interning at a local cultural history museum during college was a highlight of my undergraduate career, and I think I'd love to work at one again.

I'm also just tired due to going on almost five months of doing applications with getting next to nothing back. Which is depressing to think about, and I'm trying not to dwell on how negative that can potentially make me feel. So, fingers crossed.

Hope everyone's doing well. Sorry for being a ghost, as usual.

#Satari rambles #Ignore me #Just trying to manifest something as the youths of today say

[satari-raine]

Well, I woke up a bit emotional this morning.

Thank you to those who shared that post, genuinely, it means a lot to me. And an extra thank you to those that donated, I'm honestly a bit flabbergasted. While giving just to do it is definitely appreciated, please message me and let me know if you would like anything in return. I want to thank you for your generosity.

Otherwise, yeah. Just hoping you all are having a good day today.

#Satari rambles #I'm an emotional dork ignore me #Felt a bit hopeless waking up to a big job rejection but then I saw all this and yeah #Still can't believe it but I'm genuinely so grateful #Feel inspired to start my job search for today at the very least now

[satari-raine]

II might be - is?! - going on Drumeo on the 19th, it feels like my birthday came early.

#Satari rambles #Sleep Token #Hi I love drumming and drumming videos and Drumeo's series of drummers trying to play a song they haven't heard before #And I saw the newest one with The Summoning and then the last fifteen seconds of the video came for my life #That's so cool but I do wonder how it'll work #Is he just gonna stare at them or have an interpreter? #Just ominously stares while absolutely destroying a drum kit #No different from live shows I suppose but either way #Sorry for rambling and I'll try to be normal about this #(Keyword is try) #(I'll probably fail) #(Also my birthday is soon because the passage of time is weird and it feels strange as heck to see that number get closer) #(I forget about my birthday most of the time)

[satari-raine]

"Lord forgive me but I may have to make a nonessential purchase," I say to myself, quoting a tumblr post, as I stare at the Sleep Token RevolverMag announcement.

#Satari rambles #Sleep Token #I haven't splurged or bought myself anything in a long while for several reasons and I probably shouldn't #But that artwork and the promise of photos and comments from other music artists is so tempting #Between the magazines and the merch (that sells out so fast) and whatever else is going to happen because the year isn't over #They really are just going to drop everything all at once aren't they #I'm just gonna lay here #So glad they won AotY though!

[satari-raine]

Sometimes I really wish I could give everyone countless dollars (or insert your relevant currency here) to go enjoy the things they want to enjoy and get the things they want to get, be it wants or needs. I'd do it in a heartbeat if I could.

#Satari rambles #To delete later probably #Seeing people upset about the chaos that was getting Sleep Token tickets mainly inspiring this #But also it just sucks to have to spend all of your time and money on surviving and not being able to indulge #This isn't too say people who can should feel guilty #Not at all #Everyone should be free to enjoy what they want with no shame #I just hate that it's so hard for that enjoyment of experiences and possessions to be universal #Granted I'm also struggling to find a job and pay bills #Like hell I can afford concert tickets even if they are in my state #Sorry this is really dumb I just #Giving everyone a virtual hug right now who is struggling with the hell that is a life with and without money

[satari-raine]

Seeing a good number of people posting as of late saying they aren't feeling well or things are a bit rough right now, for a myriad of reasons. I can't do much, but I really hope things get better with whatever you may have going on. I'm rooting for you all as I sit burrowed in a blanket cocoon (because being sick currently calls for a cocoon.)

#Satari rambles #Wish I could do something more but yeah #Waiting for the NyQuil to kick in #I want to write and sick brain sometimes makes fun things but not sure I can manage that #And I need to be job hunting first and foremost #Today's a wash since I slept off whatever this is for most of it #At least a new week starts soon #Hope it brings better days for everyone

[satari-raine]

"I'll meet my end with dreams of your future" is a line that utterly destroys me not just in contextual meaning and the softness it was spoken with, but just the devotion of it all, and it's from a series about a guy with magical mushroom archery powers.

#Satari rambles #Sabikui Bisco #Hi I rewatched Sabikui Bisco with a tutee of mine #(Tutoring them in basic Japanese and we got on an anime kick) #I adore a soft contemplative Bisco and BisMilo ruins me #Unrelated but I thought about this quote in context with Trigun and oh my god #Someone yell with me about these shows on here or Discord or something

[satari-raine]

I have obtained the master's degree.

I am no longer a ghost due to graduate school.

#Satari rambles #There's someone here with a cowbell and boy if that doesn't make the ceremony more fun #But oh goodness it's finally done

[satari-raine]

I'm so happy for everyone at the Dec. 5th concert right now.

Reading the Discord thread as it was going felt like the warmest hug and simultaneously going through the biggest hallucination possible, and what I caught glimpses of was amazing (despite a few hiccups, apparently?) Hope everyone involved - the band, the tech, everyone - is proud of themselves with the work they did and I hope the rest of the shows this year are just as amazing.

#Satari rambles #Sleep Token #I wasn't even there but I feel so happy right now #I have papers to grade right now but I cannot even think of focusing #Ignore me