#She didn't have the self respect to tell him to take a long hike off a short bridge because money

[super-predictable98]

(Not) My Dream Girl | Princess Jellyfish AU

Warning: Strong language, mention of S.A (not at all graphic), mild sexual content

(Masterlist)

September 11th

Dear Diary,

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? Someone please stop this world, I wanna get off and find a new planet. I feel like such an idiot! How can I be so dumb? Maybe mom was right, I don't have a future, not because fashion is a bad industry, but because I'm the stupidest person to ever walk this Earth, I'm really embarrassed.

Okay, so remember Suke? The girl I've been totally in love with for the last uh- almost a week. What can I say? Sapphic love moves fast! Before you know, you already have three cats, plans to adopt a fourth one while loading the U-haul and buying promise rings. But that's the catch!

As I told you the night before, Suke decided to crash with me in my room (more like was forced to by her body that wouldn't obey anymore). My roommate was out hooking up with some guy and I didn't have to give anyone any explanations, it was perfect. I thought there would be some kissing, a pillow fight, maybe some truth or dare where we both end up naked and have crazy drunken sex... But she fell asleep almost immediately.

It didn't take long for me to fall asleep as well, it was a long day and an even longer night, we both deserved some rest.

In my dreams, I kept replaying the best moments, how she held me while we danced, how she laughed at all my jokes, how she stood up for me when some dickhead didn't wanna take no for an answer. She's always standing up for me, it makes my heart all warm and shit.

Luckily next morning was Saturday, because I definitely didn't set an alarm. Instead, I woke up with a gentle hand stroking my hair, a soft kiss on my forehead, and her voice so close to my ear that I was immediately covered in goosebumps.

"Y/n, do you have any makeup remover? Guess who slept in it last night? This guy..."

I smiled as soon as I remembered we had slept together, in fact, I was in her arms. I happily opened my eyes to grab my makeup wipes, but I definitely wasn't prepared for what I saw.

At first Suke's beautiful face with her lovely grin and her big lavender eyes, her wig had come off in the middle of the night and I finally got to see her real hair. It was beautiful, short (down to her chin) and dirty blonde, it surprised me that she never let anyone see it.

So far so good, but when I lowered my eyes, Suke's tube top had slid down to her stomach showing her rather... Uh- flat chest. I knew she had small boobs, and that's totally okay! Boobs are boobs, and every single one of them is beautiful.

That didn't really surprise me as much as the next part. Her skirt was hiked up and I could see a... Volume between her legs (a pretty impressive volume if you ask me).

"You... You have a..."

"A cock? Yeah, I'm a boy, I thought you knew," Suke grinned, beyond amused with my reaction. "Didn't I tell you already?"

"No! I think I'd remember something like that! I've been getting your pronouns all wrong! I'm so sorry!"

"That's okay, I don't mind, honey. I go by he/him, but it doesn't bother me," he said as he wiped his face. How the fuck did he look even more beautiful without makeup? "I'm just a boy who likes to wear girl clothes, there's nothing wrong with that. The concept of girl and boy clothes is pretty archaic anyway."

A lot made sense in my head with that revelation: how obvious he thought it was that he likes girls, that sexy boyish laughter, and when I really stop to think... The way his adam's apple moved when he drank. I guess I was just so hypnotized by that gorgeous face that I didn't even notice.

"Are you upset? Disappointed?" She... I mean he asked.

"No!"

How could I be? Of course I wasn't! It's not like she he had to disclose his genitals to me before we started being friends or anything, I was just surprised.

A boy, a straight boy, who knew so much about fashion, was incredibly respectful, and on top of it was confident enough to throw gender norms out the window and be his true self despite the judgment. Was he even real or just a dream?

The night before he undressed me, we were totally alone, I was drunk, he could've... Taken advantage of me, but he was a perfect gentleman. How sad is it that doing that, the bare minimum, is another reason for my heart to start pounding in my chest for her? Him. He was a fairytale prince! No, he's a princess!

"What? Don't like the boy version?" he teased. "You'd be the first. Mommy gave me veeery good genes."

"Cocky shit," I rolled my eyes. He knew that wasn't the case, he was asking just to fuck with me.

"I know you like that about me," he followed my gaze to his crotch and I immediately looked away. "Don't worry, you can look. I'm just not sure if this is morning wood or just being around you."

"UGH, I hate you," I covered my face with a pillow, hoping he wouldn't be able to read my body language or something. "You're such a pain in my ass, Suke!"

"You love me," he threw the pillow away and his expression changed for a moment. "This doesn't change things between us, right? That's not weird for you? Cause I understand if you don't feel safe or if-"

I had to stop him there. I didn't want anything to change, it had been so long since I clicked with someone like that, since I felt like I could tell someone anything and they wouldn't judge me. I felt protected, I felt cared for.

He seemed happy with the answer, asking if we could sleep a little longer. How could I say no to that face? With no makeup or lashes, he was still the prettiest person I've ever seen. I know I mentioned the song She's So High before, but maybe what we have is more like... Hunger by Florence + The Machine. Or even better, Fine by Ian McConnell.

Because we have been talking for such a short period of time, and I definitely don't need him to feel complete, I am fine! But I don't wanna be fine, I wanna feel like this for the rest of my life, this euphoria that nearly kills me any time he's around. He probably won't ever love me back, and that's okay, it would be asking too much. All I want is to love him and have him by my side.

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