#The crushing melancholy and listlessness that hit me out of nowhere when I got home from work

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i don't think netflix has ever Perceived me quite as clearly as it did today when the first thing that popped up on my screen after opening netflix was a documentary about infinity

#Fucking hell I've cried three times in the last hour just watching this??? #I mean I was in a major weird headspace when I hit play anyway and somehow #The crushing melancholy and listlessness that hit me out of nowhere when I got home from work #Collided directly with the simultaneous existential dread and optimistic wonder about the possibilities of the universe and infinity #And somehow I'm just. In a better place #The universe is a fucking fascinating place to be and we're not capable of understanding it because it's too vast and we're finite #Like genuinely there are things out there that CANNOT be comprehended the way we understand the world and reality #Possibilities are limitless and YET #Just the fact that in the whole vastness and complexity and possibilities of the universe #We're here with the ability to contemplate it? #We're infinities ourselves and yet we have meaning BECAUSE we're finite #The wonder of existence #The humility of our fundamental limitations #Which of themselves give meaning to the endless possibilities of the universe? #God damn #In another life i actually would have followed this wonder and become a theoretical physicist or something #Like that shit is genuinely SO fascinating and humbling and conceptualizing our existence is so connected to what makes us tick #WHY we create art and find meaning and are capable of love. Not to be too sappy on main but like. Fuck man #Hold on a sec. Man just hold on #THE UNIVERSE SHOULDNT EXIST. IT MAKES NO SENSE #AND YET IT IS THE ONLY THING THAT DOES MAKE SENSE AND OF COURSE WE ARE HERE. OF COURSE WE ARE #Misc #Existential crises with Syra hour