#aaaurrghggghgh head in hands. my brain is going 2 explode.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

as much as i am mentally unwell over tristamp rn... i think i will always prefer 98. this is weird coming from me because i am the guy whos favorite part of the entire series is weird plant biology and there is exactly 0 of that in trigun98 but at the same time like........ it just makes me so much happier to watch.

obviously the manga is objectively the best version of the story and i would kill for a beat by beat animated adaption of the manga (<<something i know is impossible) but i also have a hard time reading comics and cannot readily consume the manga as well as i can the animes

#nobody asked for these thoughts but i need an outlet <3 #my ranking goes trimax >> 98 >> tristamp #not to say i dislike tristamp. i very much like tristamp and there r certain aspecfs i like from that version even better than in the manga #which is why i think my preferred method for creating/consuming fan content is when ppl combine aspects of all three #like. idk man i have a lot of trigun thoughts tonight im squishing it around in my hands like silly putty #i desperately wish i was not in a huuuuge months long setback of writers block bc i would love 2 do character analyses rn #aaaurrghggghgh head in hands. my brain is going 2 explode. #im going 2 sit down in the imaginary space inside my mind and start #untangling neurons like theyre a knotted tangle of necklace chains and headphone wires #need 2 do that but like fr. do u know how good thay would feel. solves all my mental illnesses #anyway in other news i did my thumbnail overlay and my new profile pic for artfight today. cannot wait 2 post those they look soooo good #finally i can be a guy covered in blood (<< is planning 2 be team vampire) #sigh. i do not want 2 sleep i do not want 2 be a person rn i want 2 be a. #vague concept or perhaps a fictional character who ppl write hurt/comfort about. emphasis on the comfort