#abyways. would talk to my therapidt abt this but he is useless and dont wanna tell a specific person bcs thats embarrassing so here ugo

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it's like. olivia was right when she said jealousy jealousy

#no i wont be adding details yes i will #ITS LIKE. OKAY. #im the most insecure when it comes 2 my relationships with other people w the exception of a few #and my mind is constsntly reminding me that everything i feel abt them is not what they feel abt me and that #they are tolerating me etc etc and everytime i get a reminder of the fact that they. exist without me or feel better w/ other people #ITS NOT BEING POSSESSIVE ITS MORE JUST oh yeah right we are not thinking the same thing even if we probably are #i just get hit so hard by it? and i get jealous? my irls will mention a gc that im not in that i wouldnt even talk in if i was a part of it #and instead of getting sad i get jealous and angry. some friends will reference a server or a memory from smth idk about #and ill get jealous and feel stupid and ve reminded hat nothing is ever as important to other people as it is to me #abyways. would talk to my therapidt abt this but he is useless and dont wanna tell a specific person bcs thats embarrassing so here ugo #julian.txt #BTW THIS ISNT SAYING I DONTHAVE IMOROTANT FULFILLING RELATIONSHIPS IN MY LIFE I DO OFC U KNO WHO U ARE #its just never enough for me i can never be loved enough and i want to take up space in someone else's life so they cant have anyone else #first love late spring my behated #thats a jjk fic btw. dont talk 2 me #diary entries