#again its mostly common sense especially if youve been studying biology for a few years

[minglana]

im SO scared for tomorrow lol. so far i get everything ive read and i understand it bc its mainly common sense. and i might be doxxing myself a bit too much here (not that i havent already done so) but the part about soils is what im scared the most about bc even though ive been hearing stuff about soils basically since i was born. the chemical part of it is SO complicated to me. the whole anion exchange thing. is just so out of reach for my brain. that im just scared im not gonna get it

#so far its been just temperature stuff and water deficit which is fine #again its mostly common sense especially if youve been studying biology for a few years #but edaphology........ she scares me so much. #and the worst part is that these teachers KNOW my dad they know that hes an edaphologist. and one of them even did an internship w him #when she was younger so they know how smart my dad is. so theyre probably going in w high expectations of me. and well. #they will be SO disappointed. lol. lmao even #its like being a nepo baby but with no benefits just anxiety that im not as good as my dad or aunt or uncle. #and everyone keeps comparing me to them and everytime theyre just. so disappointed. bc i dont reach their expectations. #and you might ask me if i even like what im studying or if im doing it bc my family has also done this. and you might say its a bit of both #bc as a kid i didnt like it but the more i learned abt it the more interesting its become to me. #but either way i wont reach my family's levels. not that theyre internationally known lol my dad and uncle are just known #in the aragonese-catalan circles of their study niche. unfortunately for me #ta esborrar