Miyawaki Sakura Mobile Mail [March 9th 2017]
Subject: あと10日後
Other 10 days
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Pretty long post
もうすぐで19歳になるよ~
I’m going to trun 19 very soon ~
ラスト10代だ~~
It’s gonna be my last step as a teen-ager~
HKTに加入したのが13歳の時だから
もうすっかりお姉さんになっちゃったなぁ
Because I joined HKT when I was only 13
I feel like I’ve completely become an “older sister” by this time
正直、19歳になるまで居るなんて
思ってなかった…笑
To be honest, I didn’t expect I was going to last here in the group
until my 19th birtday… lol
加入した時はね
女優さんになりたくて入ったし
家族は勉強を疎かにしたら怒っていたから
You know, when I joined the group,
I did it because I wanted to become an actress
and my parents also got mad at me because I was going to neglect my studies
最初の総選挙ランクイン出来なかったら
辞めるんだよって言われてた
They told me that, if I wasn’t going to join my first SSK
I had to quit
センターでも無いんだし
居ても居なくても変わらないんだからって
言われてたな
that because I wasn’t center,
either I was or wasn’t there, nothing was gonna change.
総選挙ランクインって普通に考えて無理な話だよね笑
加入して半年くらいの総選挙でランクインなんて…笑
To rank in the SSK, just by thinking about it, it feels like an impossible thing, right? lol
I mean it was about only half a year after I joined the group, so… lol
あーもう私辞めなきゃいけないんだって
思ってた
I thought I had to quit, after all
でも、まさかのランクイン。
運命が味方してくれた。。
(ファンの皆さんのおかげ泣)
But instead, I made it.
Fate was by my side…
(Thanks to all of you, fans *cries*)
それからも何度も何度も辞めようとしてた
辞めようとしてたというか、
辞めさせられそうだった
After that moment, I thought about quitting so many times,
more than “thought about quitting”,
I felt like they made me think about that.
今でこそ協力的な家族だけど
昔は、全然仕事も人気もなくて
娘の将来を家族なりに考えてくれてたんだと思う
My parents are being quite cooperative now,
but at the beginning, when I didn’t work much
nor was I that popular either, I think they were just thinking about their daughter’s future
〇〇出来なかったら辞めてもらう
という、家族の無理難題に必死で応えた。
And so that’s how I responded to my parents impossible demands such as
“if you can’t do something, just quit”.
最初は女優さんになりたいって思ってた
一度もアイドルになりたいって思った事無かった
At the beginning, I wanted to become an actress.
I not even once thought about becoming an idol.
でも、アイドルになってから気付いた
アイドルの凄さ、アイドルの楽しさ。
But since I became one, I realized
how amazing and enjoyable it is to be an idol.
アイドルを続けたい。
その一心だった。
I wanna keep being an idol.
That’s what I wholeheartedly thought.
無我夢中で頑張っていたら。
AKBの選抜に入ったり、ドラマの主演をさせていただいたり。
As I began to do my best, losing myself into my job, 100% focused in it,
I entered AKB senbatsu, I starred in dramas.
いろんなことが舞い込んできた。
Many opportunities started coming to my way.
もちろん
悲しいこともあった。
その度に家族に連絡した。
And with that, of course,
sad and bad moments also came.
And in those times, I called my family.
そんなに辛いなら辞めればいいよ
って、いつも言われた。
“If that’s really so tough for you, then just quit”,
is what I was constantly told.
今考えたら
16歳で家族と離れて、東京で暮らしていた私を
心配してくれてたんだろうな。
If I think about it now,
I must have caused them quite the worry, since I was 16 years old
and I moved to Tokyo away from them at such young age.
でも、その時の私はこんなに頑張ってるのに何で辞めればとか言うんだろうって冷たく当たってしまってた。
But, because at that time I was working so hard, I couldn’t understand why all they were able to tell me was to quit. That’s what hit me, straight into the faice.
心のすれ違いが、いっぱいあった時期。
It was a time in which we had many conflicts.
毎日泣いてたな。
希望的リフレインのセンターを発表された時は、怖くて怖くてずっと泣いてた。些細な事がある度に、ひたすら泣いてた。
And I cried every day.
At the time of the announcement of me as center of Kibouteki Regrain, I was so scared, so terrified, I kept crying the whole time. Even at the smallest problem or trivial thing.
泣いて泣いて泣きまくって
Crying and crying, I couldn’t stop crying.
それでも、絶対そんな弱い自分に負けないって
いつも思ってたな。
And despite that, I always told myself I wasn’t going to let
that weak side of me win.
その頃から、家族には弱音は吐かなくなった。
心配かけたくなかったから。
ただでさえ心配かけてるのに
これ以上かけたくなかった。
From that moment, I stopped complaining with my parents.
Because I didn’t want to make them worry.
And even if they were already worried by that,
I didn’t want to make them worry any further.
誕生日も、年越しも、
いつも一人だったけど
寂しくないそぶりをしてた。
私、甘えるの下手だからね。笑
My birthdays I spent them alone,
the New Year’s Eves I spent them alone too,
but I never asked for them to come.
‘Cause I can be pretty stubborn, you know. Lol
嬉しい事だけ、伝えてた。
I would only report them the happy/positive things.
そしたら、家族がよく褒めてくれるようになった。
And with time, they started to praise me.
私は、自分で自分を褒められない性格だから
家族が代わりに褒めてくれたんだと思う。
Because I’m not the kind of person who can praise herself,
I think my parents did that for me.
さくらは本当に頑張ってるよって。
Like, “You’re really doing your best!”.
一年前くらいに、お母さんが東京に来てくれて3日間くらい泊まりに来てくれて。
駅から家までの家路を2人で歩いてて。
私だけ自転車だったから、先に帰って家事しとくねってピューっと走って行ったの。
About one year ago, my mom came to Tokyo to spend three days with me.
As we were walking our way from the station to my home,
I was the only one riding on the bike, so my mom told me, “Get home ahead of me and do some housework, alright?”, and as she said that I would rush home.
その後ろ姿を見て、お母さんは泣いたんだって。
娘が、東京みたいな大都会で1人でたくましく生きてる姿が、嬉しくて、でも、寂しくて、どうしようもなかったって。
Some time later she’d tell me that she started to tear up while looking at my back rushing at home.
She told me that she felt both happy and sad by the fact that her own daughter was living alone in such a big city as Tokyo, and that she felt like she could do nothing to be of help.
そんな話を聞いて、私も泣いちゃった。
When I heard that story, I ended up crying too.
私も家族と離れて寂しかったけど
家族だって私と離れて寂しく思ってくれてたんだなぁって思った
I felt sad when I had to move apart from my family too,
but that was the first time I realized that they felt sad by being so far from me, too.
私が頑張るのは
夢のためであり、ファンの皆のためであり、
The reason why I’m working so hard
is because I wanna fulfill my dreams, for my fans,
家族のためでもある。
and for my family.
家族に嬉しい報告を沢山する。
側に居てあげられない私が、今出来る親孝行はこれしかないんだ。
I wanna be able to report to them many happy things.
Even if I can’t stand by your side right now, here’s how I am going to show you all my affection.
だから、わたしは
毎日頑張れる。
That’s why,
I’m able to do my best everyday.
絶対に頑張るんだ。
That’s why I’ll definitely do my best!
19 歳になっても
私はずっとずっと
頑張り続ける。
休んでる暇はないから。
Even if I turn 19,
I’m gonna keep doing my best, always.
‘Cause I’ve got no time to rest.
無理しないでねは禁句よ(^_^)
頑張るって言ってるのに
頑張り過ぎないでって言われると
何で!?って思っちゃうの(^_^)笑
心配は不要よん(^_^)
私には応援が必要(^_^)
“Don’t overdo yourself” is not accepted (^_^)
When you tell me “please, don’t work too hard”
altho I’m just telling you that I’m totally gonna work hard
I just go “why?!” (^_^)Lol
I don’t need you to worry for me (^_^)
What I need is your support (^_^)
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AKB48 9th Senbatsu Sousenkyo (2017) - Final Results
KEY:
Rank. Team/Kennin NAME 2017votes (change compare to:2016rank/2016votes)
(/) - did not participate in 2016
(-) - did not rank in 2016
Senbatsu
1. H/STU Sashihara Rino 246,376 (0/+3,365)
2. B Watanabe Mayu 149,132 (0/-26,481)
3. S Matsui Jurina 113,615 (0/+1,274)
4. KIV/A Miyawaki Sakura 82,803 (+2/+4,524)
5. NIII Ogino Yuka 73,368 (-)
6. E Suda Akari 63,124 (+1/-6,035)
7. A Yokoyama Yui 58,314 (+4/-296)
8. KII Souda Sarina 52,475 (+22/+24,106)
9. 4/STU Okada Nana 48,143 +5/+4,825)
10. NIII Kitahara Rie 45,684 (+2/-4,506)
11. 4 Takahashi Juri 42,663 (+4/+2,015)
12. M/A Shiroma Miru 41,491 (+12/+11,508)
13. NIII Honma Hinata 41,230 (-)
14. KII Furuhata Nao 40,202 (+15/+11,649)
15. KII Takayanagi Akane 38,576 (+5/+5,400)
16. M Yoshida Akari 35,540 (+61/+22,028)
Under Girls
17. K Mukaichi Mion 35,201 (-4/-11,893)
18. KII Matsumura Kaori 34,977 (/)
19. K Minegishi Minami 34,688 (-2/-5,323)
20. N Suto Ririka 31,779 (+24/+10,220)
21. B Kato Rena 30,282 (+5/+949)
22. S Oya Masana 30,236 (/)
23. NIII Nakai Rika 29,953 (-)
24. 4 Kojima Mako 29,699 (-5/-3,825)
25. NIII Takakura Moeka 28,623 (-)
26. KII Oba Mina 28,554 (-4/-3,564)
27. BII Ota Yuuri 28,457 (+25/+8,923)
28. H Tanaka Miku 28,355 (+17/+7,346)
29. 4 Kawamoto Saya 28,118 (-2/-1,095)
30. 8 Kuranoo Narumi 28,037 (+4/+1,885)
31. KIV Moriyasu Madoka 27,384 (+19/+7,156)
32. B Fukuoka Seina 26,444 (-)
Next Girls
33. M Kato Yuuka 25,988 (-)
34. KIV Fuchigami Mai 25,900 (+6/+2,905)
35. KIV /4 Tomonaga Mio 25,733 (-12/-5,581)
36. KII Ego Yuna 25,731 (-1/-232)
37. H/B Yabuki Nako 25,364 (-9/-3,342)
38. KIV Tomiyoshi Asuka 24,996 (+4/+3,115)
39. BII Murase Sae 24,585 (-)
40. H Tashima Meru 24,458 (+3/+2,594)
41. NIII Nishigata Marina 24,401 (-)
42. 4 Iwatate Saho 24,303 (+9/+422)
43. A Sasaki Yukari 24,276 (-5/+217)
44. E Kamata Natsuki 24,108 (+30/+10,226)
45. A Taniguchi Megu 23,304 (+24/+8,354)
46.E Goto Rara 23,225 (-)
47. AKB kks Kubo Satone 22,895 (-)
48. BII Okita Ayaka 22,264 (-23/-7,253)
Future Girls
49. H Sakaguchi Riko 21,643 (+10/+4,804)
50. H Tanaka Natsumi 21,472 (-)
51. 8 Oguri Yui 21,296 (-)
52. 4 Komiyama Haruka 20,910 (-31/-11,976)
53. NIII Yamaguchi Maho 20,888 (-)
54. KIV Ueki Nao 20,640 (+4/+2,742)
55. AKB kks Muto Orin 20,356 (-)
56. KII Takeuchi Saki 19,919 (-25/-8,363)
57. N Tanigawa Airi 19,752 (/)
58. KII Arai Yuki 19,467 (-)
59. H Matsuoka Natsumi 19,372 (-13/-1,608)
60. M/4 Shibuya Nagisa 19,263 (-4/+123)
61. N Ichikawa Miori 18,814 (-)
62. KIV Motomura Aoi 18,363 (-26/-7,250)
63. E Kumazaki Haruka 18,299 (+4/+2,699)
64. S/4 Kitagawa Ryoha 18,052 (0/+2,259)
Upcoming Girls
65. 8 Ota Nao 17,757 (-)
66. E Tani Marika 17,744 (-11/-1,530)
67. 8 Nagano Serika 17,662 (-)
68. E Sato Sumire 17,320 (+7/+3,663)
69. 8 Sakaguchi Nagisa 17,303 AKB (+1/+2,390)
70. NGT kks Miyajima Aya 16,930 (-)
71. NIII Kato Minami 16,641 (+5/+3,070)
72. KII Obata Yuna 16,511 (-)
73. A Hiwatashi Yui 16,492 (-)
74. K Mogi Shinobu 16,393 AKB (-27/-4,520)
75. 4 Omori Miyu 16,162 AKB (-2/+1985)
76. B Goto Moe 16,097 (-)
77. NGT kks Kado Yuria 15,990 (-)
78. SKE kks Takahata Yuki 15,804 (-)
79. HKT kks Toyonaga Aki 15,598 (-)
80. TII Matsuoka Hana 15,396 HKT (-)
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