#alas. the linear passage of time and the fact that i am just a single person...

[robinsnest2111]

just listened to penny lane for the first time in years and for a moment I was a young teen again, chest deep in my beatles phase, I know it's hella cringe but the beatles were my happy place at the time, my comfort in a shitty inescapable environment

#i even had a beatles wall calendar and wrote the guys' names on my pencil case with sharpie #and idek how many times i rewatched the yellow submarine because it was my nr. 1 comfort movie at the time #also my very misinformed romanticised hippie phase orz #bought a bedazzled peace sign necklace from a decor/party store that's been gone for at least 10 years now #never wore the necklace tho because i didn't want to be perceived... #if i could i would reach through time and space to give my younger self the 60s/70s make over of his dreams #and take his hand and go out into the world looking however the hell we wanna look #to show him that it's okay to look weird and have people stare because looks cannot kill us!! #especially not when i'm around <3 #wanna hold younger me and kiss his face and tell him it'll all be okay and that he's not alone and i'm there for him aughh #and tell him that he doesn't have to hide his hobbies or passions or have to live in the shadows to escape the bullying #i know he just tried to survive and along the way wished he could just be an unseen spectator in life #but that's no way to live tbh.... #back then i wished for future me to guide me and help me and make me feel less alone #and now current me would do anything to make that a reality #alas. the linear passage of time and the fact that i am just a single person...