#also I don't have all the lyrics to the set memorized? which im nervous of actually?

[permanentreverie]

Would like to respectfully throw my uterus into the sun

#in my 8 years of having my period. I have been on time maybe. twice? #AND TODAY I HAVE TO BE ON TIME!? #I HAVE A FUCKING CONCERT TO GO TO 😭😭 #like instead of vibing in the shower this morning I was almost crying thinking about how I don't have any friends #and I've never been anyone's first choice #et cetera et cetera #and I've actually got anxiety cause I'm looking forward to the concert I love the artist #but I'm going with my brother which. I don't know if we have a good relationship or not #I'm just on guard around him ever since he said I was a bad person and treat everyone horribly a few weeks ago #which made me feel v suicidal 🙃🙃 #also I'm trying to get over this fact but I ordered a shirt from etsy #to wear to this concert #in MAY #and it hasn't arrived #so I requested a refund ofc #and I have a different outfit I can wear I was just. really looking forward to wearing this shirt #trying to not cry over that because in reality it's NOT that big of a deal but it feels like a big deal to me #also I don't have all the lyrics to the set memorized? which im nervous of actually? #idk guys im just. im so not fucking feeling great rn which sucks cause todays supposed to be a good day