#also i knewwww there was shit in my moms life that would help explain her more but that i would never know

[kummatty]

im putting it all together & it's rocking my world

#wow wow wow #there is such a gravity to it all and i can feel that but i am also so amused and find it kinda funny #in a way like damn they rly kept that secret locked in a box in another dimension #also i knewwww there was shit in my moms life that would help explain her more but that i would never know #this gives me some more context and i can start to make out some contours but theres still so much i dont know #i have such a morbid curiosity to jump into my moms brain and learn what made her who she is #we have a strained relationship so i want to understand and i also have a lot of sympathy and wish life had been easier/freer for her #but she also makes my life so difficult sometimes #and i wish i knew her when she was young and happy #my aunt was like i cant believe i told u this dont tell anyone #we had some misunderstanding and she thought i said i knew so she kept going and i was not understanding #so i kept asking what and who and finally got it #lmaooo #shes so cute