#also i literally took the 'ah non lasciarmi no' concert aria to her last time we saw each other asking if i can do it

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????? ok fuck me ig this year is crazy

#so first my moms husband dies. then turns out my grandpa has cancer too and wont see the end of this year. my grandma's also dying. #NOW MY MOST BELOVED PIANIST LEAVES TILL THE END OF THE YEAR???????????? health issues. bruh. ill get health issues if you leave me. #im obsessed with him he restored my love for singing i would have quit if not for him </3 #my voice teacher is leaving for the rest of the month cause she's singing in latvia. good for her i love her so much it hurts so its ok #but still :(( #and like. god. im fucking up left and right and it feels like everything is literally crumbling to dust around me #cant catch a break can i #ughhhhhhhhhh #also i literally took the 'ah non lasciarmi no' concert aria to her last time we saw each other asking if i can do it #and now what? both her AND MISTAH [redacted] ARE LEAVING ME. #di vita mancherei nel dirti addio fr ah no non lasciarmi ah no </3