#also ngl i had to watch shadow and bone cast interviews bc at this point they’re the only thing providing serotonin

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#so i had to go to campus today after almost 14 months bc we had to do this hw and they let us use the machinery at school #which saves a lot of money so i’m not too mad about that #but we basically spent all morning there trying to set up the machine properly #then we stayed all afternoon to actually use the machine #i had to fucking cancel my first ever therapy appointment bc this hw is due tomorrow and we had to finish #and it’s STILL NOT DONE #we have to go back in tomorrow to try to finish it hopefully and honestly? #i was incredibly anxious about going to therapy but i wanna go and i wanna get better and i’m so tired of feeling drained and exhausted all #the time and then the fucking teacher can’t give us a proper schedule and we’re forced to go multiple times and there’s this guy who didn’t #even fucking bother showing up for his hw when we were all there all afternoon ffs i canceled something very important to me for it #and i ended up having a breakdown while making dinner instead #so how was your day friends?? #also ngl i had to watch shadow and bone cast interviews bc at this point they’re the only thing providing serotonin #andy’s thoughts #i keep thinking of going back to my old rambling tag but i feel like it would be taking a step back but it fits this chaos so much