#and a shit tonne of text. so much text. i'm sorry about all the text. but that's just how mind works. it's the writer in me

[hmslusitania]

Honestly I've lost hope and it really hurts at this point. When I just watch the Buddie scenes in 4x13/14 it's all good but then I remember that they gave Buck and Taylor a solid foundation and they showed Chris clearly liking Ana and the three of them acting like a family so I feel like Buddie is done for at this point. I know I never should've gotten my hopes up, I know I'm a stupid idiot, and yet here I am crying over a fictional ship yet again

Hey Anon. I'm sorry you're in pain, that's a bad place to be.

Many, many people in this fandom are much better at meta analysis on these fronts than I am (I would even hazard to say most people, tbh) and they have written extensively on the relationships the boys are in right now and their future trajectories. I can't personally see either as having potential for an endgame setting, but we all see different things when we watch the exact same shows so your mileage may vary.

As far as hope and Buddie being canon, this is gonna get a little autobiographical here because as I said, I am not great at meta, so just like. bear with me.

I've been involved in fandom stuff (mostly fic writing; didn't start actually talking to people about fandom stuff until ff.net implemented their messaging system whenever that was) for fifteen years now. I don't think I count as a fandom old, but maybe comfortably middle aged. I have been involved in a lot of fandoms, and have been a fan of even more things that I never quite ventured into fandom spaces for. I initially joined tumblr for Supernatural, ffs, like. I have Seen Things, Anon, and a lot of them were ugly, and a lot of them were cruel to the fans on purpose, especially us queers here, and I have been sucked into fandoms specifically because of Tumblr's exceptional skill at finding all the little moments and giffing them and sharing these beautifully charged acting moments. I started watching Teen Wolf back in the day because of Tumblr telling me about Sterek and we all know how that worked out. And when I went from tumblr's eloquent and lovely gifsets that pulled out all the little pieces and complied a compelling narrative to actually watching the show? You know, it fell flat. It was definitely all there but it didn't have nearly the same prominence that I had been lead to believe by the talented and dedicated people here in this blue garbage can.

And so when a few people I'd been following for years started posting these gifs about 9-1-1 and about Buddie, I was like "oh, it's gonna be Teen Wolf all over again" but I needed to know the context of the grocery store fight and I needed to understand why a lawsuit would prevent Buck from talking to Eddie and Eddie's son (were they getting divorced? Who was suing who?) and so I read all the episode summaries that existed to that point (up to What's Your Grievance) and then I read a metric fuck tonne of fic, and then I finally caved and watched the entire show. I absolutely expected all the Buddie moments I'd seen giffed and referenced in fic to be small, throwaway things that didn't really stick with the plot or were played as a joke.

As a few of my friends can attest, I proceeded to send them about eighty billion texts of "HOLY SHIT ALL OF IT IS CANON WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING" and dragged one of them in all the way (sorry @starry-eyed-guttersnipe) and one by proxy (@rhysiana thanks for still talking to me anyway).

I am not, by nature, a hopeful person. I am primarily obstinate and spiteful, but like, I'm chipper about it? So do I recommend having hope about Buddie being canon? Meh. But I have never seen a set up like this in any of the seventeen hundred television shows I've watched in my life. And I will be shipping it until the show ends, and probably a little longer. If you can find it in yourself to hoist a hefty goblet of "fuck you" at whatever current nonsense canon's giving us, the still-shipping-despite club is a fun and comfortable place 💖

#I don't know if this helps #probably not #but it's what I've got #the ghost ship answers questions #sorry if this shows up somehow in anyone else's shipping tags I tried to avoid using words

[jaehyunskitten22]

Omg I love it, it's so good!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!. I'm super stressed out today because I have a tonne of shit to organise for a party tonight so not enough time. This just made me feel more relaxed and so much better. Thank you you beautiful angel. Ugh, so good. And I freaking love how you added the face sitting thing, absolutely brilliant. 💖💖💖

I'm glad you liked it sweetie! I'm sorry that you're stressed right now, but I'm glad my texts helped you relax ♥️you are such a sweetheart 😭💖♥️💜Thank you for all your compliments and sweet words 🤧(face sitting is my guilty pleasure and I love writing about it whoops 😂)