#and a trip to see my hometown bestie in august + niall next year but

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#lads (gender neutral) i am sorry but i have been feeling very. sue of side all lately #i’ve got no meds left and have no idea when i’ll be able to get my hands on some again #plus i got hit with a random and barely applicable 300usd traffic today like #on top of everything else it’s all just. too much disappointment and continuing finanical hardship #to an almost nonsensical degree #i’ve barely written this past week and trying to draw has been. equally successful #i just feel really hopeless and nihilistic and it’s been so long since i felt this way but i know i’m about to be in a really bad #depressive episode soon but idk what to do to help it #i’ve got my louis show at the end of the month and a tattoo appointment at the beginning of july #and a trip to see my hometown bestie in august + niall next year but #i’m still feeling very *sad kazoo note* about it all #idk i just need something good and substantial to keep me going like my hope and motivation is all but gone at this point