#and here's this easy calm confident man who tells him it'll be alright bc he's strong and capable

[samiferboy]

i am not immune to the idea of s1-2 samifer

#avery.txt #young sam being so desperate and confused and distraught bc he thought he could escape this life but no. he couldn't #and here's this easy calm confident man who tells him it'll be alright bc he's strong and capable #sam keeps having nightmares but sometimes this man shows up and pushes them away and makes him feel at peace #not to be all freudian abt it but he never had this support from his father & now there's this handsome man encouraging and accepting him #so he feels Something. and it's fine because it's just this recurring dream right? #but then he finally is able to ask this dream man what/who he is and. he says he's an angel. who's been watching over sam since he was born #(this is a scenario where lucifer gets out of the cage 4 seasons early ig) #and sam finally feels SEEN. he finally feels like his faith has been worth it. #he throws caution to the wind. grabs his angel and kisses him. tells him he wants him even tho he knows its wrong. #and his angel is kinda taken aback. this was NOT where he saw this going/where he was trying to steer it. he didn't think sam would do THAT. #but he gives sam what he wants and oh. it's GOOD. sam dreams that he shows his angel all the love his angel has given him. #idk where this goes/what the endgame would be here but. i love young sam still grieving jess and searching for his dad or grieving for him #*being swept up by someone who gives him what he needs and cares about him unconditionally #and doesnt care that he ran away. that he doesnt obey. that he doesnt fit the mold. someone who loves these things about him. #i love them so much in every possible way <3 con or noncon <3 varying lvls of fucked up <3 love all of it