#and i cant come clean without feeling like a loser piece of shit. so uhh remember how i said i was a student? what i meant to say is i WAS

[thepinkseashell]

scary things are happening .

#i may have a job opportunity but also i may have lied to this person and i dont know if its better to just continue and deal with it later #so like. i was in community college n i kinda lowkey dropped out but not really #like technically im still enrolled but i have not taken classes in a While cause the Life Circumstances were being Difficult . #acquaintance asks what i do. reflexively i say im still a student. cause. kinda true but not really. #we ended up talking abt something related to their partner's work and i mention having experience in a related field. which is true. #and they ask if im taking classes over the summer and i say no. which is true. and theyre like i think u would b great working a temp job #over the summer @ the place where my partner works and they offered to put me in touch w them #which is really sweet but i feel like i dont deserve it cause i feel like a liar. like i didnt lie abt the work experience or anything but #i still feel shitty cause they think im Currently A Student and im not. and i dont know if thats relevant but i still feel like a fraud. #and i cant come clean without feeling like a loser piece of shit. so uhh remember how i said i was a student? what i meant to say is i WAS #a student before my life went to shit and im currently unemployed and not in school and trying to piece my shitty life back together! #u should still give me a job tho! ugh #ugh. i feel shitty. but this is probably a good thing i need a job and i need to get back out there and be a person and talk to people #but its scary and i feel like shit and i dont think i deserve it. ugh. whatever . #if i can somehow pull this off without them finding out i am a loser and a liar and a piece of shit this might be good for me. i hope. #i really hope.