#and i dream about it being 5x larger in the ground

[coldbug]

constantly dreaming about turning so much of our lawn space into a fuckoff massive herb garden ( ´_ゝ`)

#like. we have a huge chive plant in our raised planter bed herb garden #and i dream about it being 5x larger in the ground #i wont it

[bombshellxmichelle]

you’re gonna kill it this term baby.

you have the pathophysiology, the focus, the drive, the support and the strength.

You will become such a smart and competent nurse. You are capable of so much .. knowledge speaks, wisdom listens.

You are incredibly blessed, so much learning, self reflection and humility. I feel humbled by my flaws, my mistakes and the ability to see myself through the stories others share with me, the instances that occur reminding me of what had occurred.

I feel blessed to be on this path, to be renewed.

I also feel the need to let go of old habits. The habits of self isolation, being quiet, being too immersed in the misery, the problems and sadness. Or perhaps I am practicing self compassion and allowing myself the space and time to process what it is I need to do and process. I need time, space and patience and this is what I am giving to me. I am so lucky to have learned this new breath work and new YouTube channel. When I am ready I will share.. yet success is all about taking the risk. Well, what I do know right now is to focus.

Deep focus. Get clear on my goals.

My goals:

To feel competent, knowledgeable in clinical.

To lose 2 inches around my waist.

To do cardio 30 minutes 3x/week, and hit the gym 5x/week.

To STOP thinking about myself too much.. it does become difficult to socialize around. It feels like the other individual is self-absorbed, and this is distasteful.

To be elegant, speak kindly, speak highly of others. To feel empowered, yet soft and gentle.. to feel warm and nurturing, letting go of judgement and comparison.

My goals for the next 3 months is superior focus on my nursing skills. To provide safe and ethical nursing care and make a difference in my patients lives where they recover quickly and discharge with education, resources and knowledge about themselves. It’s so important that they know what to and what not to expect to prevent any complications later on.

My goals include focusing on attaining A’s, cooking wholesome meals, spending quality and nurturing time with parents, and use my free time to nurture my own skills.

To use my free time to create- create modules, create art, create love, create words, create poems, create art with my body, create strength in the gym. Mental resilience and breath work of compassion, energy release, and a lifestyle of wellness and humility.

To start drop shopping because I need to make money online.

My goals include thinking larger, more broad, farther. To feel less zoomed in on myself and to be thinking among the horizon, to think of the bigger picture and gather a bigger perspective. My goal includes letting go of negative thoughts, persevering through low moods through gentle action.. I am proud of myself for how I handled today.

I took a day off and that’s great. I did not waste money. I cleaned. I went for a long walk. I meditated. I prayed. I journaled. I revealed myself. I expressed myself.

Life is too short to focus on small details. Think bigger, think larger, move forward and stop expecting from others. Start creating the reality I dream of: luxury, humility, free time, quality time with loved ones, honesty and finding purpose through work, purpose through quality time, purpose through creating quality products that can change and better people’s lives. Purpose, passion, poise, humility and grace. No more distractions from social media, no more mixed messages- get clear on who I am, get clear on what I want.

There is no time limit to how much I can discover about myself. Not in a selfish way, but a kind and compassionate way, so that I feel confident in who I am, and to show up everyday and put in the effort to be present, to be mature, to be present in the day and present in listening to my loved ones, checking in with my loved ones, connecting to the people around me, the nature around me. To feel grounded and fully in tune with the present day. To feel free, free of baggage of yesterday’s worries. To feel strong in my decisions and how I carry myself, with so much grace and wisdom at a young age.

You have gifts to share and love to give.

There’s money to be made in how much I can offer. The only thing I need to do is try.