#and i jnow i should be fine without your regret but im not

[libraryidealist]

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry but I want you to be too

I want to look down on you while you gasp and cry and feel the pain you caused me

and I think my therapist would say that that doesn't make me a bad person but I think it does

Because you can articulate the pain I caused you and I can't do that to mine I can just feel it but oh god I caused that hurt and I'm so sorry so sorry so sorry

But I want you to be sorry t—

#I'm sorry i didn't want that #and i jnow i should be fine without your regret but im not #i dont want you to have this power over me but i don't know my place in this dynamic #am i a equal party or am i the man in the empty room with you #trigger warning panic attack