#and i only just realised it's probably an ocd leftover bc it's been like that since i idk developed ocd tm

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#hey what's up any people with ocd on here #do any of you also get that thing where even tiny decisions are like. Big Scary ??? #and you're terrified of Unspecified Consequences? #this is literally on my mind for the dumbest reason ever but the way i get completely anxious about choosing something is?? #and i only just realised it's probably an ocd leftover bc it's been like that since i idk developed ocd tm #i vividly going shopping with my mum and she was holding up two pyjama tops with text on them and one of them said smth like? sweet dreams? #and i almost had a meltdown right there bc it felt wrong and like what if that's something you say before someone d**s or whatever like..... #my poor mum tbh djfhfjgh she had to listen to a lot from me #anyways it's back i'm trying to choose and it's Not Working and i Do Not want to talk about it with irls even though that'd be easiest #it's so fucking embarrassing #anyways. feels good to type it out at least. makes it more concrete or real i guess #** i vividly remember #also when i say decisions ofc i mean big ones like a major or courses but also like. colour toothbrush. what kind of pillow/plushie u want #it's like This Might Have A Huge Negative Impact and ur like wait what why and ur brain is like. Bad. Tread Carefully. and ur like fuck okay