#and i want to do impulsive bad reckless smthn

[soldier-poet-king]

I need to lie in the sun. I need more impulsive piercings. I need to shave my head. I have to grow my hair to my waist. I need a tattoo. I need to quit my job and disappear into the woods. I need to ladder climb and be ambitious in my career. I need to stick my arms in warm dirt. Etc etc etc etc

#franposting #im literally just. today. today i am extra mentally itchy #and i want to do impulsive bad reckless smthn #but i am boring and responsible and im going to so my job and then go home and probably just play sdv watch d20 do my nails #no cider bc TOOTH HURT and sugar isnt going to help #tho i DO want it #i am crawling out of my skin but too physically unwell to work out to get that brief mental bliss #physical training would genuinely fix so much of my brain issues #if my body would cooperate long enough for me to be able to be consistent with it #but Nooooooo its gotta fall apart for no damn reason #how soon is too soon to call the dentist back and be like dr this isnt going awayyyyyy #its only been 3 days since the xrays but it is NOT getting any better #not worse either. just. THERE. and irs definitely the roots