#and i've mentiones the order edit b4. objectively a very pretty picture but the vibes i get from it now are not plesant

[mythicalartisttm]

trying to sever myself from the colorful squid game has been the most passive emotional ride ever. I go through a two day cycle of “oh yeah, this isn’t so bad, this is totally doable” then mentally sitting with my chin in my hands while staring at the wall going “i miss this game.” I have been in enough distress to relapse but not from withdrawal (i don’t think). The tug is not strong enough for me to feel any more than light sadness. It’s nigh constant. I often ask God if this is a temporary deal when I’m 99% sure of the answer (no). This is not a complaint, this is me trying to come to terms with this

#tm speaks #sp////latoon really is too unique to be replaced (affectionate and derogatory) #in concept and art style #this is not about me trying to find a replacement series bc #the reason God will ask you to kick something out of your life is bc He wants to give you more than what the thing can offer you #where's that one post that's like #conviction is God telling you that He can and will give you something so much better #also tbh knowing the celephod game's playerbase i get the feeling that born-again believers and the majority of the community Do Not mix #the lobby is. a very worldly place ngl #the game itself is not a blasphemy-is-in-your-face level like some other stuff i've been into in the past though and i think that's #what's getting me #that and the fan concepts and fan art that i've seen around #like even that one particular s/////almon/ling concept breached containment #for example #p/roject: sp/////latoon t//hree is also up there #and i've mentiones the order edit b4. objectively a very pretty picture but the vibes i get from it now are not plesant #really that goes for the whole game in general #ah hang on here it is: this is the first thing i've had to give up that i never fell out of but also never burned my hands on it #so it's this kinda awkward position of 'i need to get rid of it but it doesn't scream DANGER in all caps' #which is normally what it's taken for me to drop something #anyways i hope this is the last time i yell about this #side note that i noticed something inch resting abt the armor of God that i'll post about l8r