#and if this makes me sound snobby. idk what to tell you man sorry lmfao

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rant 🤪

i love my best friend dearly and spent three months after i got eras tickets trying to convince her to come with me bc i got extra and she kept just saying she can’t bc school this school that but now! a month before the concert! she’s like oh btw i was talking to [this other friend of ours, my og swiftie friend] and also some other people who are going and now i think i wanna go but i don’t have my schedule yet so i have to wait but i wanna go sooo if you still have the tickets lmk how much bc i want in but if you did sell the tickets it’s fine

mind you this is like 24h after i Finally came to terms w rly selling them (for AGES i was like. i wanna hold onto one more bc what if she wants to come so i’ll sell the others in a pair and my dad was like ??? you’re insane but whatever lol) and NOW? after talking to other people??? now you decide you want in????? and idk why i’m irrationally weird feeling abt this maybe it’s bc i am in fact exhausted but. girl ?? i spent months trying to CONVINCE yes convince you to wanna come and ???? nothing. but now??? bruh.

and to boot! my dad and this whole selling tickets for a fortune thing. he’s always been like ? you’re just lol gonna give it to her for face value? that’s a $1200 gift we’re talking about. and i’m like bro it’s not a gift lol she’ll be paying for it. but he’s like dude profit margins. and i really didn’t feel that way til yesterday when i was told (by stubhub or wherever i was looking) that my seats have been selling for upwards of $3k which is INSANITY in its own sense but yknow what he did have a point! and i know i’m not actually considering not giving her a ticket bc thag was my whole point of getting however many i could at presale bc. i do wanna be able to go with friends and have it be a whole time yknow?? but now i’m feeling petty and like. bro i talked this up for so long and it took. someone else’s opinion to get you to wanna come w me???

and don’t get me wrong we’d have the time of our lives she really is my best friend and my sister wouldn’t mind if she came (i don’t think) bc she’s chill and they like each other but also like. i’ve gotten into the mindset that it really is just gonna be me and my sister and i got underratedly hyped for it!!!! like yes she’ll be 13 but yknow what that’s such a blast and literal core memory for her i have no doubt about it. and now i’m like. maybe we Shoukd just be going alone not with other people even if it is my best frjend

UGH so many thoughts and honestly it’s not imminent bc obviously she didn’t commit yet but i’m gonna have to tell her she needs to commit or not bc i have to list the tickets soon so i’ll either save hers or i won’t but like. she needs to commit to it

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#this has been a rant #sorry idk i’m having a hundred mph thougjts abt this rn #and if this makes me sound snobby. idk what to tell you man sorry lmfao