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#and im still worried that ive nuked several of my relationships with people through a combination of trauma response and my own stupidity
gwaindrifter
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#I am under so much stress and heartache right now
#that I really am just being held together by the thinnest thread right now
#my dysphoria is through the roof
#and I feel like the people I care about don't and never will really see me as a woman
#and on top of that everytime I step in my parents' house I surrounded by pretransition photos on me
#including a fucking painting of me as 4 year old done by my homophobic uncle thats hanging prominently in the living room
#and I will lose my shit if one more person close to me or someone i care about dies
#because everytime i turn around another person drops dead
#including a man I viewed as a pinnacle of strength and wit wasting away slowly from brain cancer
#and everywhere i turn people i care about are having health issues crop up
#including my father who i already worried working himself to death from always helping people
#having to have a procedure done that im so worried he's not going to actually rest and recover from
#that im trying to trick him into getting addicted to a video game so that he'll fucking sit down
#and im still worried that ive nuked several of my relationships with people through a combination of trauma response and my own stupidity
#and i know healing takes time but i have an incessant need to fix things that ive inherited from my father
#and while money isnt to much of an issue now
#if i dont find a job and one that i enjoy soon im going to lose my fucking mind from just sitting around my house all day
#like i really shouldnt have quit my old job even though i hated it because being unemployed is so much worse
#also while minor im freaking out about finding a new RPG for my gaming group to play
#because i feel like ive let them down by prematurely ending our current campaign because i cant move forward with it
#and if i dont find some proper stress relief soon
#im going to hurl myself against a wall
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