#and it seems like I'm either being called a liar who is slandering a noble profession

[obstinatecondolement]

Having trauma from being misunderstood and disrespected and ridiculed and for any attempt on my part to make those things stop making it worse is like. Not great. Don't like that.

#please do not recommend therapy #I also have these issues in psychotherapy and trauma from that #and 'you just haven't found the right therapist because those experiences are very atypical' feels hurtful and dismissive #since like I've seen a lot of them and it was always the same so it was pretty typical TO ME #and it seems like I'm either being called a liar who is slandering a noble profession #or told to keep doing something that hurts me forever to see if it won't hurt this time #and I'm never allowed to opt out #because it's 'unhealthy' of me to stay away from traumatising environments #that have never helped in the way they are supposed to #but I am wrong to think that it wouldn't be different #so like again we're back to people thinking I'm always wrong #and that my experiences of the world are invalid by default