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#and it's crushing that I've been living like an ascetic since march 2020 to keep my parents safe
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I wonder if I'll ever get my lungs back
#with my luck probably not
#for the last two weeks I've been on a cycle of like
#can't breathe right so I use the inhaler -> wait an hour and start to feel jittery -> cough a shitload ->
#breathe okay for an hour or two with intermittent coughing -> lungs start fucking up again ->
#try to deal with it as long as possible before using the inhaler again
#it's interminable and I hate it
#I hope I won't need to use this thing to breathe 4-6 times daily for the rest of my life because it's really unpleasant
#and it's really scary to just be sitting down doing nothing in particular and suddenly be unable to catch my breath
#it's been super hot out so I haven't really been trying to go out or do anything
#but I'm not going to pretend that I'm not worried that I'll go for a walk and get stranded cuz I flew too close to the sun
#and I've also read that supposedly there's better recovery rates for long covid if you take it easy early on
#it's so scary
#I'm so scared
#and I feel so alone in all this
#I don't want to die but it's hard living like this
#and it's crushing that I've been living like an ascetic since march 2020 to keep my parents safe
#and the one time I do something for my fucking self this happens
#it's like the universe wants me to feel as hopeless and useless as possible
#I got excited and signed up for another in person event in october
#but I'm petrified this will just happen again
#or like by the time it happens I might not be able to walk around and do shit
#or I'll be fine but I'll bring it home
#I don't want to die but this isn't living either
#I just want to have some kind of a life I can be content with but it's always further and further away
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