#and its nothing religious either. i didnt have a religious upbringing and i often forget christmas is a religious holiday

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i dont think I've ever stated just how much i love christmas (or the time around it) because oh my god

just one classical song that is often associated with christmas and i begin craving that time of year so so badly

because i have such a warm feeling about it, this kind of nostalgia from when i was a kid it fills me with such a specific positive feeling and a longing for more of that feeling that nothing else can make me feel

i dont even have any specific memories that i can link to this, i just have such a fondness for it that i've noticed the past few years

#and its nothing religious either. i didnt have a religious upbringing and i often forget christmas is a religious holiday #its just such a joyful time for me #its the time that i thrive the most #the feeling is so happy and warm and i cherish it every year #every time christmas time ends and winter goes away i feel so upset #and then when it comes back around i get so excited #its nice that something that doesnt have any actual like. meaning. to me is able to make me feel such a way #its a nice reminder that despite everything prior in that year i can still feel unbridaled joy #that that part of me hasn't been killed and never will be #sorry for the ramble i just. have such strong feelings that got reawakened just now #bean's random thoughts