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#and its the simple thing of Realising mid way that i am infact: wrong i just dont know how to Not keep going.
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#i realised that bc i crave yhe chaos of toxicity that ill take the worst parts abt him and spin it so he seems Even Worse than it is.
#hes not all that bad and hes fucking trying. i know that. but hes hard work.
#but bc im so used to . Toxic behsviour and fighting and everything that isnt peace ill try and make arguments over Nothing
#even if i have no bakcup and i know hes right i keep Trying to make a fight out of Nothing and i dont know how to stop that or how to even
#understand how that makes me feel. and i feel so fucking terrible about it. and i wamna Change that so bad but its so fucking scary to?
#bc i literally had the thoight today of how boring and . ubevental my relationship had been for the last week and a half .
#and a few hours later i was getting upset with him.over something that couldvr simply been a simple conversation.
#and i dont know how to Not Do That . i dont know how to fix this at all or how to go abt trying to fix this thoughy and action pattern.
#bc while he is an arrogant prick. i can be so fuxkibg terrible to him and he doesnt xeserve that .
#and its the simple thing of Realising mid way that i am infact: wrong i just dont know how to Not keep going.
#bc i did that tn. i realised that i was jnfact qrong. but didnt wanna back down bc id already Started
#anx tje guilt of realising i was wrong was so fuxking Disgusting. all i wanted to do was Keep Going w the bullshit
#bc i know that rhere were much better ways to phrase what i was thinking and i didmt have to do it tn
#i couldve literally just msntioned that there was an ussue w xyz and that shile he didnt need to fix it tn
#i did wanna talk abt it later but did need the extra reassurance
#i just dont know how to even fucking . ask for that .
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