#and ive been getting lots of clarity and understanding and needed compassion with another situation

[weenhands]

today i realized for the first time that i have made a massive improvement in myself mentally from the past two years. not so much emotionally or whatever but my mental headspace this past month has been seemingly the best it's been and this entire year so far has still been shitty but ive had alot of maturity and growth from issues ive been dealing with and yah. but i need to improve my eating...its getting worse and i think for the past month ive only been eating one meal a day ((esp bc of my insecurities of having an allowance w my parents, i feel guilty asking for money))

#eating mention #so then i end up. not feeding myself #and i am more picky w food lately #but yea. im really hungry and i only had one meal today...a good meal #but justone. besidrs cereal. #its gonna be my goal to eat as much as i can ((NOT from outside my house bc i hate eating so much junk food)) #and to also improve my mental state #its been since 2018/2017 that my life has been going downhill rlly bad #and i feel like im finally at the point where it all went wrong like im full circle and i finally get to be who i was before #my obsessive thinking. my ruminating. my issues with just not being grounded here on earth #and ive been getting lots of clarity and understanding and needed compassion with another situation #that i used to beat myself up abt #which makes me feel happy. ofc its never going 2 b a perfect situation but i think if theres anyone who gave me perfect closure #about the situation at hand its robin from talking to her about it which planted that seed of clarity #and then. thinking of the situation all over again and understanding everything in a way i needed too #which makes me happy #and today i managed to go through this day without my brain being like. its hard to put into words but #without my brain being ocd. because i think this is sort of because of a possible ocd i have #and im excited for tomorrow to hopefully feel the same #im excited to feel better again #2023 will be my year #i need to write all this in my diary i woulr say more but its hard to put everything into words to make it make sense to #whoever is balls deep in my tags #you must fix your heart guys:)) and so far ive been doing just that. ive been making progress. its taken two years and i am making progress #ans i need to reward myself for that