#and like. I've met neckbeard gamer bros who I loved and got along with super well. they were mad adhd. but like. ugh. I can't stand boring

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#hmmmm. the game night was very underwhelming. I committed to playing Catan and then other people showed up and played smash bros #and ngl I kinda wanted to just throw in my cards and play smash bros instead #got called 'he' IMMEDIATELY by some dude so that was hmm and then someone noticed and was like 'let's all say our pronouns #and several dudes were visibly uncomfortable about saying pronouns and made jokes about it and were deliberately obtuse #so honestly pretty meh vibes overall. I really don't want to make a neckbeard gamer bro stereotype but ummmm. sorry those were the vibes #anyway not for me I think #also there was zero chaos energy at all. I need manic energy to feed off of #I did my best to sow a bit of chaotic fun and no one played off it either. #honestly just very boring. I lowkey shoulda stayed home #I learned what app people use to coordinate groups though. so I guess I'll look at that now. maybe find some other groups #the city I live is really is kind of a dead end though. so not a lot of opportunity. I'll keep hunting though #I just want to find wildly adhd people is that too much to ask. I need chaos and jokes and laughter and objects thrown through the air #I cannot take boring small town talk around a small table. #and like. I've met neckbeard gamer bros who I loved and got along with super well. they were mad adhd. but like. ugh. I can't stand boring #I can't stand calm. I need them to be hopped up on neurodivergence #I wish it were socially acceptable to get up and go 'sorry you're all very nice but you're very boring I'm going home now' #like. no offense but I hate it here bye #tag talk