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#and like. going to the uk was part of what forced me outta my shell and kinda changed my whole life
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#ok so if i wanna do a phd in the uk im prob gonna have to try for some scholarships
#so now im stuck staring at the stupid very competitive scholarship listings
#and like i mean ill go for it i guess but there is no fucking way im gonna get then
#bc the 2 thst would cover the whole thing are either fulbright or the one specific to the institution. which is an prestigious uni so like
#also super competitive. and then i look at what they want and of course they want leadership qualities
#and i just. im like god. someone else deserves this more than me
#im an awkward anxious person. i could say that im trying my best to walk toward a place where i could me a leader
#that could be my angle. like overcoming my stupid dyslexic brain and inability to be a human
#and like. going to the uk was part of what forced me outta my shell and kinda changed my whole life
#so i mean. i guess that's something
#but like i just feel horribly embarrassed when they ask for like community outreach or whatever bc im like hhh i go to the lab at weird
#times so i dont have to interface with ppl. i have nothing to contribute to society. sorry for taking ur time. goodbye
#but ugh i might as well go for it i guess. it just feels real bad to have to present ur merits as a person like thst when u dont have much
#to put on the table. i mean ive got my school stuff. ive done things. but does any of that have any value other
#than occuping my brain? idk
#sigh... i need to find more labs. and im meeting with a guy Wednesday. hopefully thst goes well. then i dont have to think abt this...
#unrelated
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