#and my brain knows that no tiny bit of luxury can go unpunished. bc it is trying to crush me to death

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#do ya ever think 'oh i really really want that' and then realize how sad that is #bc having that thing is absolutely in your grasp #youre just not letting yourself have it #and after realizing this you still think: well. i dont need it anyway #i get on fine without it nbd #but like come one live a little! #u make ur world so so small u sad little creature #also gotta think abt if im going back home for Thanksgiving #and really i should just stay here for a lot of reasons but it also makes me sad bc i kno i would enjoy going home #and its so seldom i enjoy things. plus theres always that nagging part of me that thinks: what if something terrible happens and this #is the last time everyone is together #but really i shouldnt go home and i dont think i will #ugh im just stewing a bit bc i just spent 5hrs being largely unproductive #and my brain knows that no tiny bit of luxury can go unpunished. bc it is trying to crush me to death #@my brain: pls stop this madness at once. i beg u #unrelated