#and put on a youtube let's play to beat the hypnagogia allegations and then i am going to go to sleep.

[blackwaxidol]

"why am i not tired yet."

> i have forgotten to take my sleeping pills. it has been two hours.

#not inconvenient. will persist. #viktor.txt #can persist... should persist... personally doesn't care to persist... #i am just an animal sounding off arrangements of words right now. #i don't persist and problem-solve out of mental fortitude it is just that if i do not perform the action then another part will. #psychologically i am ever-intended for continued survival. #if i cannot take it then another part will do it for me. #is it really strength of character or commendable resilience if i survive whether i want to or not? #i feed into it but i don't know if i even like it. #i fear being a nuisance to an almost destructive degree. #Aries doesn't see people like that. (part) feeds into this fear and torments me with it. Lejdy doesn't ever consider sociality. #what an anxious creature i have turned out to be. #what..? why am i even discussing this... #part is skipping around gleefully over something from earlier. #the hypocrisy he exudes seems entirely lost on him. #whatever. i am going to finish my caffeinated beverage that is not even close to empty and then i am going to take some sleeping pills #and put on a youtube let's play to beat the hypnagogia allegations and then i am going to go to sleep.