#and still had a vast array of friends and in denial about how harmful my partnership was

[sugaftrm]

maturing/healing truly is so painful and lonely

#because in my lowest of lows I find myself wishing I was thinner and younger #and still had a vast array of friends and in denial about how harmful my partnership was #truly I could forgo that relationship but again the most insecure parts are like oh at least you were desired by someone??? #and I hate that this is where my mind goes when I’m triggered #i miss having friends who’ve known me for years and that I could just reach out to and they would just know the context #it’s so lonely here after growing out of situations and learning that certain dynamics don’t serve you