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#and that hit of urgency is obviously far too short lived to make anything. esp since it comes in a set with a feeling of 'wow this-
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ahhhhhh i remember why i dont read comics & books and watch movies as much as I should. Because they make me lose it
#i get suddenly hit with a tsunami of inspiration and an urgency to Make Something
#but the urgency isn't about the process of making it's about I Have Stories To Present Too. I have to See Them Realized.
#and that hit of urgency is obviously far too short lived to make anything. esp since it comes in a set with a feeling of 'wow this-
#-thing was so great' that transforms into intensified perfectionism of No No What Im Doing Here Isnt Good. What Is This. Disgrace-
#-to my idea AND to what inspired it AND to my self proclaimed status as an amateur storyteller
#which turns into artblock. so like low chances that ill even get a singular good drawing made during this
#and the multiple comic or script or whatever ideas that appear in my head during this are out of the question entirely
#oh and all of this appears next to the normal feelings caused by a good story like attachment to the characters and having to process it-
#-for a while and if its very good then even sometimes rarely i get the need to make fanart
#so all of this combined just leads to me not being able to do anything for a while and feeling awful about it.
#fun./sar
#i wish i was a normal artist people here are so resilient and do stuff even though they dont want to or they DO want to
#because idk they enjoy being pissed bcs of a thing not turning out right and they dont mind how tedious it can get-
#-and they enjoy sacrificing hours&days&months of their lives without a guarantee that anyone will appreciate it accordingly and itll pay of
#its probably the resilience though
#im weak like a dried twig both mentally and physically
#this sounds like i never enjoyed drawing&writing ever. and to clarify thats far from true. i frequently enjoy it
#just never frequently enough and consistently enough to actually make something more 'worthwhile' or linear
#it's like a wind that comes & goes that i have no control over.
#i try to keep telling myself that in the past i struggled to make anything 'bigger'....& know i even made animatic shitposts
#this sounds so stupid god. an animatic shitpost being an achievement.
#its not an art skill achievement its a fighting tooth and nail with my own self to actually finish it because its a struggle almost every-
#-time achievement
#what im saying is im trying to tell myself that i already improved. im doing more than i could have done in the past.
#even if the process is so slow and i dont know when ill advance again
#if ill advance again. i just gotta believe i guess? thank u parappa
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