#and the middle aged man that you adore and treat as a paragon of salvation is distant and cannot love you ''normally''

[bruhstation]

you deserved better from me than an oversized uniform and a world full of troubles

#this is tugs #tugs zorran #tugs zip #fortezza bigg city #senjart #quick doodle before bed (1 am) #when you're only 18 and got force-fed a world full of crime and shady hard-to-trust folks #and the middle aged man that you adore and treat as a paragon of salvation is distant and cannot love you ''normally'' #while the person that berates you is the one that genuinely loves you but your brain automatically registers any ''insult'' as ''bad'' #and you don't know that he cares for you #family'd so hard they started to develop genuine traditional family problems #we're not beating the complicated doomed familyhood allegations with this one 😂😂😂 #the faint ''have to'' in the background is like. #''do I care for you because my boss handed you to me as part of my duty'' #vs #''do I care for you because I don't want you to end up like me even though I am NOT warm or nice'' #also them without their hats. the one thing all z-stacks have in common that indicates them being from the same group #theres lots of details and themes and whatnot in this doodle but my brain is a mush..... erm..... have fun staring #(fixes my glasses and grins like an ape)