#and the yeast infection from hell and two different cold sores in 3 weeks despite

[flintstill]

God I loved that in my neighborhood back where my lease is that the grass gets mowed at like 5pm or a bit later

Fuck ye outside my window I’m trying to go back to sleep

#dsps #dspd #dswpd #my mom just screamed at me for taking a sleeping pill to go back to bed #(which is unfortunately not uncommon. esp at my parents house where I can never get good sleep) #especially because my fucking body woke me up after 4 hours of sleep when I am trying to sleep as much as possible like 12+ hours #to fight off the fevers I’ve been intermittently having #and the yeast infection from hell and two different cold sores in 3 weeks despite #I literally paid for a hotel for two nights because I tried valiantly and failed to get any decent sleep at my parents house #even with melatonin and cbd and CBN and sleeping pills literally trying every *safe* combination #and then she accusingly asks me when I went to bed #like I’m not a fucking adult whose on fucking break. like I don’t have both adhd and fucking dsps #she just had joint surgery and I’m sorry I haven’t been able to help her as much #but I wasn’t even supposed to be here now?! I was supposed to fly back a week ago but had to cancel because I got sick #and have been running errands since #and also while sick #which has probably #made me fucking sicker? #like not yesterday but the two days before that I was running around doing errands with a fever. (covid negative) #I didn’t fucking ask to be sick or tomorrow be able to sleep in this house #and she fucking yelled at me that I have to go to bed at midnight #like bitch I don’t have to do anything #and thank you again for making me feel so profoundly misunderstood and unlistened to #and worthless because of my adhd and dsp #I really hope it was the pain from the surgery and her pain meds not having kicked in #because it was out of character #like I hate that this is one of the few times your hearing about her to build a picture about #as if anyone is reading these tags haha I am processing and venting #because she is usually wonderful and lovely #but she was a fucking bitch. she really hurt my feelings