#and they never accommodate that. either ignoring or calling anyway! cant get a prescription because they dont read emails!

[autisticlee]

If things for non-verbal communication helps you I'd say go for it. Others saying you're not suffering enough to make things easier for you aren't living your life. Do what helps you.

even if I did, the world around me isn't very accommodating. I know all people in my life wouldn't be accepting of it. I don't go out much or have many friends. don't talk where I volunteer but I told them on the form I signed up on that I wouldn't talk and they're surprisingly accepting of it. don't talk at work, but work with my mom so she talks for me basically. the times I would need it would be very hard to use. not sure if I could do it with phone calls or video calls. am known to not call back for important things because dont answer my phone and will try to email them instead and no one wants to answer emails. will beg them not to call in message. they leave voice mail saying they got my message so call them back..... have video calls with my therapist and don't know how i'd use it for that. could help for in person doctor appointments but doctors are so impatient and want me in and out fast, don't know if it would improve much. I already never get to say all I need and non verbal communications is slow. don't know how twitch chat would react, so might be the only viable option...people that know me might be weirded out but whatever. new people might make fun of a robot voice but whatever x2 if I make it part of my "thing" they can deal with it especially if I cam finish making a vtuber and make that their "voice" maybe.... would be hard when playing games having to stop to type and won't say things enough so kinda same problem.....hmmm. could maybe at least work for art streams? 🤔

#sorry for rambling. just working it out in my head #wish it would be easier but world isnt very accomodating so dont know how to navigate that #ah. remembering as a kid desperately wishing i could learn sign language and teach everyone around me so i could acrually communicate #but didnt have internet and couldnt find books for it and no one wanted to learn it for me either #was excited to take it in high school but they got rid of a bunch of classes because not enough funding and cant afford teachers :/ #is alternative communication easier for me if hurdles it has are exhausting too? just emailing places is very stressful and tiring #and they never accommodate that. either ignoring or calling anyway! cant get a prescription because they dont read emails! #S I G H #talking feels so hard for me but am told don't count as semiverbal/semispeaking. makes me wonder how hard is for actual semispeakers #or dare i say....would i actually count and just got wrong info because i explain bad...idk. #am wondering if its common where people get mad because You Can Make Mouth Sounds So I Only Listen Of You Speak! #used to write in notebook to try communicating at school. people say they wont read and had teacher tear paper up and force speech #he got no speech. #pretty sure using aac would be similar “use your voice. i wont listen to that! i know you can talk!” people irl are ignorant and not nice #why this post take 45 minutes to make....typing is tiring 😅 #so used to trying to typer perfect so people understand better and am known to be really good writer. but. so tiring.... #maybe should try shorter wordings. is easier. hope people understand. uhhdhhdhssdhhdbdhefhf tired