#and they're shaking their heads in disappointment at how socially needy I'm becoming

[weirddreamergirl]

Ugh part 2

#I look back at my younger self like they're the spirit of my ancestors #or my past lives #and they're shaking their heads in disappointment at how socially needy I'm becoming #NONE OF THEM PREPARED ME FOR THE HORRIBLE LONELINESS I'M FEELING IN MY LATE 20S WHAT THE FUCK #Like I'm not feeling insane enough to want kids thank God because I'm genuinely mentally professionally and financially shit ass fuck #But oh I'm starting to understand now why people want to settle down #like you want someone to be your partner for life #that horrible longing for an anchor someone to run to any time if you need help #but fuck it I don't know if I'm ready for that or even how to get that #I don't feel like I'm independent enough to ever stand on my own if they leave me #I'd be gutted devastated utterly ruined #I probably should go to therapy instead of going to tumblr #But my God this is so horribly overwhelming and it's a horrible internal conflict #LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS PLEASE I JUST WANT A JOB