#and unsurprisingly my supervisor was like hey girl heres a written warning and itll be your only one or

[yutadori]

hiding in the restroom at work again ^__^

#almost had a breakdown less than ten mins into my shift #was not here for my sun evening shift bc i said i was sick (real) (had a tummy ache and said i had food poisoning) and then i was too #anxious to msg my head supervisor to let her know #eventually ended up responding to my supervisor of that night saying that i wasnt able to be near my phone to let them know #before my shift (lie) (girl who has problems and issues and problems) #and unsurprisingly my supervisor was like hey girl heres a written warning and itll be your only one or #and then you'll be terminated if this happens again and i was like haha makes sense (~: #and she was saying theyre more strict on trainees and that ppl usually take the recipe test after six shifts but that im behind #and i sort of wanted to explode idk why that was my breaking pointouuuughhhh #i feel like im going to fail or i feel like im gojng to fuck up and be late for some unforeseen reason and then im going to get terminated #and die and re enter my unemployment era #goddddd what if i fail what if im not good enough what if i fail and im jobless AGAIN #death for me NOW !!!! #also tonight theres my supervisor + two other people and i felt so fuckjng awkward while they were all #talking and i was trying to get the courage to talk to them but it was sooooo intimidating because it was THREE PEOPLEEEEE #and then even when my supervisor went on break it still felt intimidating to talk to two people god im so JDSKDJSKSJJD #sun texts