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#anyway i'm just so sick of being alive fr i've been so massively suicidal this past week and i'm so tired
elliesbelle
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#humungous trigger warning for the tags in the post
#but i just need to vent somewhere and i don't want people irl to be in my business about this
#or to get too worried and all...
#tw: mentions of death and weapons and mental illness and suicide and sh-ing and abuse etc.
#please feel free to ignore like i said i just need somewhere to vent
#anyway i'm just so sick of being alive fr i've been so massively suicidal this past week and i'm so tired
#having bpd AND bipolar AND depression AND ptsd and etc....
#it really hurts so much
#and my personal life is in fucking shambles like i just don't know what to do anymore
#i feel so fucking alone all the goddamn time
#so many friends don't give a fuck about anymore like they straight up just don't check up on me or anything
#and my ex... i just. why can't you be more fucking understanding of what i'm fucking going through because of you
#how the fuck did you turn my months-long depressive episode into me not caring about you cause i couldn't open about what i was going thru
#i get you were fucking lonely but i was trying not to fucking die i was over here being talked off ledges
#and then sending me a voice memo saying that you were lonely and trying to make an effort but i just didn't care about any of it
#it's not fucking about you!!!! i didn't even let my own girlfriend or best friend in!!!! that's what fucking mental illness is!!!!!!
#you promised that you'd be more understanding about my mental illnesses when we started talking again
#what the fuck is this then?
#why am i breaking down every time that you ignore me or take forever to text
#like... she's gone back to calling me by my name instead of calling me 'baby' like she always has
#she hasn't called me by my name since we first started talking it's been literally fucking years
#and not saying i love you to me anymore...
#and how can you fucking promise to stay in my life and still be my 'friend' and then fucking ignore me and don't answer my text messages
#how the fuck am i supposed to feel that you haven't responded to me in over 24 hours but you react to days old ig messages from me
#i fucking hate having borderline for fucking real i hate that she's my fp it hurts so fucking much
#i feel like a fucking child i can't deal with this
#i literally woke up from my sleep at like 3 or 4 am this morning nearly screaming
#and then my gf found me on the living room couch crying and cuts all over my arm and a kitchen knife next to me
#my left arm has been stinging all day from the fresh wounds
#too painful to bandage them at the moment
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