#anyway the good thing is i used to have bad emetophobia and that wouldve caused a severe panic attack and like more illness

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so anyway I woke up multiple times last night bc of coughing fits and I've been coughing all fucking day and I was just standing outside on my porch trying to like chill before going from job 1 to job 2 and i coughed so hard I threw up. how's everyone else doing this afternoon

#really wish i could call in but i work in like an hour and theyd fucking kill me #i mean they wouldnt. theyre really nice. but theyd be so disappointed that i would die #anyway the good thing is i used to have bad emetophobia and that wouldve caused a severe panic attack and like more illness #but at some point in the past like year or two its gotten a lot better and i can actually throw up without freaking the fuck out now #so i still kind of want to die bc its gross and feels bad but like. im ok which is cool #sorry that was gross and tmi. welcome to my blog #cw vomit #cw emetophobia #i should clarify ive had some type of upper respiratory something for literally like 2 months. ive tested negative for covid several times #i just really need to go to the fuckin doctor lmao