#anyway todays catboy might be a line drawing i think i need. A Break. from drawing To Improve.

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its actually stupid to be so down on my art ive been drawing for like. 5 years. only. and look at how much better ive gotten. everyone u compare urself to's been drawing for over a decade. youve got 5 years more. imagine what it'll look like then <33

#^saying this but really its that. ive so. lost the story part. lost the characters lost the ideas lost the creativity. #i got too into the grind i forgor what made art nice. #but then i also. Social Isolation 9000'd myself which might be part of it. #And i havent been reading i havent been reading gah. #i literally shouldnt be so sad i got into a uni i can actually go to on the other side of the country i should be overjoyed. theres light. #(i also got into nyu but. thats really impossible. 60000 dollars a year wgat was i thinking.) #i want. to draw tender love. and also stupid silly funny guys. but the melancholy too much of a boring bitch. #+ i think recently the down on myself + social isolation has made me want attention silly mode #(which. funfact. is actually why i started drawing i wanted attention) #and. well. that comes from social media. so numbers huh. #i have. people who like myart and are so nice to me that should be enough. even one person. but. alas. #anyway todays catboy might be a line drawing i think i need. A Break. from drawing To Improve. #and get back to drawing so i can see cute boys hugging and kissing and having love in their lives.