#anyway yeah. ''but this context doesn't give me permission—'' FREE YOURSELF FROM THE SHACKLES OF YOUR INVISIBLE OVERLORDS

[psalmsofpsychosis]

people that need the proper context and label for every single fucking thing in their lives and need it defined by Some Invisible Authority TM bore me to death. "this is the X space. X space rules state that X space is for doing Y and Z. Therefore in this space we do the assigned Y and Z functions and NOTHING ELSE, because that was not defined within the parameters of the space and IT'S INAPPROPRIATE." "this is a café; here you order coffee and food and do your job only make eye contact with people you've brought with you or keep to yourself" "this is a club, here you dance and drink alcohol and grind on strangers and suggest sex to people" "this is the supermarket; here you buy grocery and then go home" "this is the feminism circle; here you talk about women according to vague criteria and dont bring up anything else" what if i tell you that you can make a Barista's day brighter by pulling a baby duck out of your pucket and mimicking a duckie voice thanking them and wishing them a lovely day as they're registering your order? what if you debate Hegel's philosophy with someone in a club and you both find out that you've been trying for ages to look acceptable and well-within-the-shallow-lines and you dont have to? what if you go to the supermarket and a grandma asks you to tell them the name of earlier mentioned Duckie and you end up befriending a grandma that introduces you to the best 70s underground obscure psychedelic bands?

The point is, no space is truly defined to contain the full spectrum of spontaneous human expression. You cannot assign protocol behaviors to different "contexts" in a way that doesn't inherently diminish your humanity and kill you inside. the "Normalize blahblahblah—" you dont need normalization, you need your fucking personhood back. The context is you; you happen, other people happen, let yourself happen for fucks sake. "you can't chat a stranger up while you're both standing in line to get movie tickets" listen to me— their bag had a Batman and a Stitch keychain hanging from it, i wanted to tell them that i think Batman and Stitch would be best friends actually, in fact; i did! because here is the thing; i'm alive and i can show love when i feel it and i can do whatever the fuck i want. <3 I'm not gonna wait for some Almighty Invisible Authority TM voice to tell me which parts of my personality are green lighted for which artifically structured context, i'm a whole person, not a fucking puzzle, you dont get to tell me which parts of me do i pick out and leave outside the door as i enter a space. What dies within the inflexible bounds of "expected and appropriate behavior in expected and appropriate spaces" is the intelligent and exhilarating instinct of creativity and spontaneity, and you know what? not on me or my duckie's watch.

#the duckie is a hypothetical entity i dont have a duckie #but he was a necessary plot device for furthering the story's arc #anyway yeah. ''but this context doesn't give me permission—'' FREE YOURSELF FROM THE SHACKLES OF YOUR INVISIBLE OVERLORDS #YOU ARE YOUR OWN FUCKING PERMISSION #the permission-needing crowd would die if they had to live by the life choices i've made lmaooo good thing they dont have to #but honestly? live a little. #These socially sanctioned contexts wont save you from the inherent humiliation and freedom that comes with being utterly utterly human. #obiding by contextual rules wont protect you #from yours or other people's unbearably faulty and unimaginably endearing and hopeful expressions #i once told about a strange dream i had one night to a guy on tinder and he told me that ''my level of interactions are way beyond the scop #of a dating app'' and that ''this place is for hooking up and sexting'' #and i told him that HE had decided that. it was HIS choice to keep to the preconceived arbotrary notions of what that specific chat window #was for. and it was also his choice #to remind me of The Rules to keep things superficial; #he chose that instead of risking to engage a sincere moment of intimacy #and y'all wonder why you never have meaningful friendships and relationships #it's because your protocols kill every chance of potential intimacy #on humanity