#anyways i passed last night sobbin like a baby instead of sleeping bc the new paracosm got real intense real fast & i wasn't ready

[blue-madd]

That MaDDer moment when you've been daydreaming for so long that you don't know if the emotions you're feeling are yours or your paras

Like,, am I not eating because I'm depressed or cause my para is still grieving the tragic death of their parent (who was murdered in front of them) through me ?

#is that even a regular madder thing or more like a plural madder thing since my paras are literally influencing my body/mind #or a schizoid madder thing since i'm so dissociated from myself that i can't make the difference between what is mine & what's my paras' #anyways i passed last night sobbin like a baby instead of sleeping bc the new paracosm got real intense real fast & i wasn't ready #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #paraportal #paracosm : Opalverse