#anyways i want to talk to someone abt this tomorrow. thank god for [redacted] bc she questioned why a certain group of ppl did something

[siobhanromee]

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#this is so fucking depressing #i am pretty sure im being excluded by people i considered my friends #and like i want to enjoy this last little bit of this stage of my life #but everything feels so tainted #by these relationships #and the one in this group of people who i would feel most comfortable talking to is dating the one who i feel like might be at the root of #the issue #but im also reconsidering and thinking that maybe i didnt do enough for people to consider me close to them #and i cant fucking text people and i think a group chat is at the root of this issue but i dont communicate well over text so no one ever a #adds me to group chats #at least thats what i think it is #the worse more sickening option is that i wasnt included in the group chat bc i have an android and if im in a group chat it cant be named #also they all have that creepy app where you can see where the others you know are at #and that app makes me so fucking uncomfortable and having it seems like a huge violation of privacy #anyways i want to talk to someone abt this tomorrow. thank god for [redacted] bc she questioned why a certain group of ppl did something #and i wasnt a part of that group. #im not alone i think. but i invested a lot of energy into this group and i want to like them so bad #and i feel like shit so i would like to feel less like shit